The Light of Paris. Элеонора Браун
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Copyright © Eleanor Brown 2016
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Sourse ISBN: 9780007393688
Ebook Edition © February 2016 ISBN: 9780007393695
Version: 2016-06-06
For my parents and my grandparents, especially my grandmothers:
Madeline Mercier Brown and Catherine McReynolds Barnes
Paris in the rain is still Paris.
—Catherine Rémine McReynolds,
November 18, 1923
Contents
Copyright
Dedication
Epigraph
One: Madeleine – 1999
Two: Margie – 1919
Three: Madeleine – 1999
Four: Margie – 1924
Five: Madeleine – 1999
Six: Margie – 1924
Seven: Madeleine – 1999
Eight: Margie – 1924
Nine: Madeleine – 1999
Ten: Margie – 1924
Eleven: Madeleine – 1999
Twelve: Margie – 1924
Thirteen: Madeleine – 1999
Fourteen: Margie – 1924
Fifteen: Madeleine – 1999
Sixteen: Margie – 1924
Seventeen: Madeleine – 1999
Eighteen: Margie – 1924
Nineteen: Madeleine – 1999
Twenty: Margie – 1924
Twenty-One: Madeleine – 1999
Twenty-Two: Margie – 1924
Twenty-Three: Madeleine – 1999
Twenty-Four: Margie – 1924
Twenty-Five: Madeleine – 1999
Twenty-Six: Margie – 1924
Twenty-Seven: Madeleine – 1999
Twenty-Eight: Margie – 1924
Twenty-Nine: Madeleine – 1999
Acknowledgments
Author’s Note
About the Author
Also by Eleanor Brown
About the Publisher
I didn’t set out to lose myself. No one does, really. No one purposely swims away from the solid, forgiving anchor of their heart. We simply make the tiniest of compromises, the smallest of decisions, not realizing the way those small changes add up to something larger until we are forced, for better or worse, to face the people we have become.
I had the best of intentions, always: to make my mother happy, to keep the peace, to smooth my rough edges and ease my own way. But in the end, the life I had crafted was like the porcelain figurines that resided in my mother’s china cabinets: smooth, ornate, but delicate and hollow. For display only. Do not touch.
Long ago, I might have called myself an artist. As a child, I drew on every blank surface I encountered—including, to my mother’s dismay, the walls, deliciously empty front pages of library books, and more than a few freshly ironed tablecloths. In high school, I spent hours in the art room after school, painting until the sun coming through the skylights grew thin and the art teacher would gently put her hand on my shoulder and tell me it was time to go home. Lingering under my Anaïs Anaïs perfume was the smell of paint, and the edges of every textbook I owned were covered with doodles and drawings. On the weekends, I hid from my mother’s bottomless disapproval in the basement of our house, where I had set up an easel, painting until my fingers were stiff and the light had disappeared, rendering the colors I blended on the palette an indiscriminate black.
But I hadn’t painted since I had gotten married. Now, I spent hours leading tour groups through the Stabler Art Museum’s galleries, pointing out the beautiful blur of the Impressionists, the lush