Birthday. Alan Sillitoe
then on Paul worked his backbone to a string of conkers, double shifting as much as he could, to make sure the children wanted for nothing. In the end, seeing how he’d worked for them year after year, they respected him more than if he had been mother and father together.
‘The best part of it was,’ Arthur told Brian, ‘that one of the kids was so smart at school he passed enough O-Levels and A-Levels (and probably every other level as well) to get through all the hurdles and qualify as a solicitor. He’s got his own firm now, and you couldn’t do better than that if you think of where he started. It must have been Adelaide’s brains and Paul’s example of hard work that got him there.’ Paul encouraged and rewarded his talented son every stage of the way, at the same time getting what help he could from the system. He wasn’t dim at all, only put on by a wife who thought she was too good for him. It must be a sign of the times that with brains you can get wherever you like, but the joke is that the solicitor son is now invited to all Adelaide’s dinner parties, after Avril told her about his success when she saw her getting out of a big flash Volvo in Slab Square. Though Adelaide shows him off to her friends, she’ll never include Paul in her list of guests. When I asked him what he thought about it, after we started talking to each other again, he said: ‘Why should I mind? It’s got nothing to do with me. I don’t want to know my ex-wife’s friends. If I did go there, and met the one she ran off with, I’d murder him on the spot. I’m happy that my solicitor-son comes to see me now and again. We get on very well together.’
Arthur considered Paul to be one of the best, even though you rarely knew what was in his mind. No reason why you should, it was always best to keep your trap shut, only let people know what you wanted them to know, which was how he thought it should be for himself and everyone, if there was to be any peace in the world.
All the same, it would be hard to believe Paul didn’t think any further than what he said or what he did, because everybody had something going through their heads. With most people you don’t care one way or the other what it might be, since it can’t be very interesting, and has nothing to do with you if it is, and if everybody told you what was in their minds you wouldn’t be able to make up your own idea of what it was, which was half the fun of being alive.
Paul obviously thought more than most people, you’d be daft not to realize it, because he’d worked harder and done so much good in his life. If a wicked remark came into Paul’s mind he would think long and good before letting it go, by which time he’d decide it wasn’t worth saying, and would hold it in. But he was bound to have such thoughts, there being times when you can see the mechanism working. I couldn’t have done half the good he’s done, though certain it is that the more you talk the more you circle back to the start line, so it’s best to say no more than you’ve got to, and keep any thoughts to yourself.
As for Basford Crossing, you can stuff the place, because the only thing that matters is that Avril’s got cancer.
When Brian parked his car some time ago he noticed that one of the streets he had grown up in had been wiped off the face of the earth. Served him right. That was the way it was. What else did you expect? When God said let there be light he painted it in, and then he painted it out. The same with the surface of cities. They needed clearing off and doing up every few decades.
A glimpse of old places set him reviewing the course of his life, though he didn’t like doing so, there being so much to anger and shame him. Such recollections should have been pushed out of harm’s way by now but weren’t. However long he lived it would be the same, otherwise he wouldn’t have left the place of his birth.
Arthur told him never to leave his car in such an area, either in daylight or in the dark, so he hoped it wouldn’t get robbed (not much to nick), vandalized for devilment, or set on fire out of malice. ‘Nothing is safe anymore,’ Arthur said, when they were settled in a snug pub on Prospect Street and could talk without music howling in their ears. ‘Nottingham’s got the worst crime rate in the country, and the worst murder rate. If you stroll through town on Saturday night you risk a cleaver in your guts. When we were kids we walked anywhere, day and night, and nothing would happen. Nowadays, if I wanted to leave my car on the street for a few minutes I’d put a nice looking hip flask on the back seat, but it would have poison inside so that whoever broke in and took a sip would die in agony.’
‘Which would serve ’em right,’ he went on. ‘Cars are owned mostly by people who need them to get to work, but thieves and muggers who break into ’em only do so to get money for drugs, or so they won’t be bored by being too idle to work. It’s the poor who suffer most from crime. The rich have got burglar alarms and guard dogs, and when they drive through areas where druggies live they wind the windows up and put their foot on the accelerator. They could stop crime right away if they wanted, but they don’t because it keeps the poor in their place.’
‘What would you do, though?’
Arthur’s graveyard laugh signified he could think of plenty. ‘It’s unlikely I’ll get the appointment, because I’m too old for the job. But I’d be ruthless. Anybody caught for murder I’d execute in Slab Square, and show it on television. Those who say it wouldn’t make any difference if you did hang ’em, don’t think they’re ever going to get murdered. I’d train a special night force looking like old-age pensioners, but they’d know unarmed combat and carry guns, and if they found any trouble they could pull anybody in and ask ’em what they was up to.
‘I’ve worked all my life and don’t want to live in a place where some snipe-nosed fuckface is going to point a knife at my guts when I go out at night. If I carried a knife and ripped somebody apart who threatened me I’d get sent down for ten years. It’s civil war, and though I’m sixty I wouldn’t mind having a go, because I’m still stronger than most of them. It used to be pleasant living in this town, but some areas are no-go now. I was in town the other week, and when a young bloke said something I thought he only wanted to know the time. He was nearly as tall as me, and had an earring hanging from his left tab hole, and a shaved head that made him look like an Aids victim. He asked me for a quid for a cup of tea, so I told him to fuck off. He shouted after me, but I didn’t want to turn back and smash his face in because there were too many people about. He looked as if he’d never been hungry in his life, nor done a stroke of work either.’
Brian knew he was thinking of his son, Harold, who rarely had a job – a heartbreak father if ever there was one. ‘There isn’t much work these days.’
‘There is if you try hard enough.’ He stared into his pint. ‘You don’t have to beg. Nobody starves, and I wouldn’t want ’em to either. We was brought up on the dole, but we didn’t beg.’
Brian finished his drink. ‘Have another?’
He would. Both did. Brian went for them. Such views as Arthur’s would be in no way agreeable to the people he partied with in London, though after a lifetime away they remained very much his as well, always had been, and he felt no shame having them, though he softened their harshness when with his friends, unless releasing their uncensored force for the pleasure of shocking them, and to let them know there was another side to him. He unpeeled an Antico Toscano bought in Italy, as strong as all get out but tasting like honey when supping a pint of Nottingham ale. ‘I suppose the police do all they can to keep the place under control.’
Arthur blanched at the smell of the cigar. ‘I was wondering where my socks went to when I slung ’em out of bed last night. It stinks like a damp haystack on fire. Well, I expect they’re doing all they can, but I never thought I’d live to say the Nottingham force was too soft. Blokes in prison ought to know they’re banged up. There shouldn’t be any television, no drugs, no sex magazines, no visits, and they’d be locked in dungeons day and night, the walls running with moisture, with only a crust to eat now and again. Anyway, let’s drink up, and see what’s going on at the White Horse.’
The next morning they decided on Matlock, asked Avril to come, but she needed time to run up a dress on