That Was Unexpected. Karsten Colbert
knee
I demand that you surrender your selfish needs and allow them to clash with mine so that we can rescue one another in my hour of need
Hold
I want to hold you
I want to slide inside you
I want to hold your face and slowly kiss you
I need to look forward into your eyes to see the real you
I need you and our rhythm to keep moving with the same time I want you
No,
I need you to feel that I’m free with you
Hold fast
Hold on
I just need to hold to you
Reality
Rain is falling
I’m looking at photographs of you,
Wishing you were here
As you walk in the room, you whispered in my ear that I had this coming
You take your fingers and slide your nails under the top and bottom buttons of my shirt
I want to be with you, but not now
My behavior is unacceptable, I do
I don’t
What’s wrong with me?
It’s a miracle that you want to be with me
You become very physical as you push me to the ground
It’s clear in my head
That I’m immobilize by the thought of you, paralyze by the sight of you,
Hypnotize by the words you say
I’m just an innocent, helpless victim
I’m full of regret because I want you so much we begin kissing
We are somewhere beyond happiness and sadness
We’re just as far as eternity
It’s heaven
Your clinching your pillow in a naked sweat, and I’ve been the needle and thread
Waving figure eights in circles around your head as I enjoy the taste you leave in my mouth
I see the outline of your shadow pushing forward and arcing back then it ends
We just sit there in each others arms we watch the sunrise
Then it comes to me
It’s only a dream
It’s not reality
Sidenote
I constantly repeat your name over and over again in the hollow hallways of my brain, so when I think of you, it sounds like echoes, but it never drives me insane.
Thirst
When I first saw you,
It woke me
When I looked in your eyes,
It inspires me
When I smell your sense
It reminds me
That I’m still stuck in the desert at this oasis
When I dream of you,
It scares me
When I think of you,
It overwhelms me
When I’m not around you,
It chokes me
I’m in the middle of this ocean and I can’t swim
I saw you
Yeah, I looked
I smelled you
And I was struck by lightning and I couldn’t move
I’m thinking about dreaming of you when you’re not around
I don’t even know you but I want you
I didn’t know that you exist
Crazy for this very reason, I’m trying to get close to you
You somehow have become the air that I breathe
You somehow have become life itself
The passion, the hunger, the torture, the love, the hate, the sanity, the mother, the father, the sun, the moon, the earth
Please come back and breathe life into me
Okay
There are so many things not to say, more things not to say than things to say,
more things that we don’t understand than things that we can understand
So we try to dig through with our hands, bleeding, trying to make our way to the truth, but it’s so misleading
The number of things that we should care about, we don’t care about, but who’s to tell us what we should care about?
We find ourselves trying to build ourselves up, so we build our own walls around us, hoping that there is no one that can find the keys to that machine,
praying that no one really sees what we wear on our sleeves
So we call a truce so we can attempt to find the truth from all the lies that we created just so we can get by off our own demons that we’ve created inside
Maybe I’m rambling on or maybe that’s just life because it carries on
Sidenote 4
I’ve relapsed again
I’m holding my phone,
Staring at pictures of you,
Lost in a daydream,
Dreaming of you and what should’ve been.
Sin Eater
I speak for the voiceless
I’m here so that she could be here I speak these words
They are more valuable than life itself
I declare my own life in exchange for hers
In exchange for every wrong that she has done
Take all my rights and make her all right
Allow me to eat her sins so that she has no more
I’ll carry them on my back in my bag,
In my heart
So that she feels the burden no more
Allow me to take her dagger
Place it down and throw myself upon it
At this moment I am at the wheel of your judgment
Please spin it and allow what I asked to be true
She