Charlie's Dad. Alexandra Scott
icy drip of water the length of her spine...
‘You were saying, Ellie...’ Babs prompted.
‘I...’ For a second she stared at the young woman, unable to recall the drift of the conversation. Her heart was beating loudly against her ribs... ‘Ah, yes, what was I saying, Babs? About wools, wasn’t it? England has such a wide range of fleeces that it seems more sensible,’ she gabbled. ‘After all, I doubt that you drink much English wine.’
Oblivious of the puzzled expression which her remark elicited she heard her voice prattle on for a few more seconds, but her mind was engaged with a quite different subject.
Deliberately she kept her attention away from the group she found so inexplicably disturbing, smiling vaguely at her companions, determined to concentrate, to dismiss idle speculation from her mind. But it was such a weird feeling, frightening, as if things long past were threatening to catch up with her, events she would prefer to keep buried...
‘Ellie, I told you we were expecting Jonas Parnell, now I’d like you to meet him.’
Ellie turned. Her intense grey eyes, shadowy with apprehension swept over Jenny and Robert, unwillingly but inevitably drawn to the man who loomed over them all. Jenny’s tinkling laugh rang out.
‘Only his name isn’t Jonas Parnell, it’s Ben Congreve. Ben, this is a dear friend, Ellie Osborne.’
It was all automatic then. Ellie held out her hand, hoping the smile she fixed on her face would conceal her shock, and it was a great help that she saw not the faintest sign of recognition in his eyes. Admiration, perhaps—she thought she could discern a flicker of that—and interest, curiosity. But nothing more. So, it was safe to smile, to relax, or at least to make an effort in that direction. Otherwise she had no idea how she would deal with the hours of torment which lay ahead.
She stood there, taking little part in the conversation washing about her, trying desperately to deal with the raging assault of emotions. For who could have forecast the crossing of their paths like this after so many fraught years? Long, long after she had felt any need—after all, it was a lifetime since she had given up all expectation. Years during which hope had slowly and, oh, dear God, how painfully ... died.
‘You know Singapore well, Ellie?’ Ben Congreve, sitting to her right, waited till she had finished her chat with Pete before demanding her attention, forcing her to look at him so he could check. Mmm. He felt a moment of sheer pleasure as the clear grey eyes flicked him a glance. A slightly nervous glance, he decided, though it was inconceivable such a self-possessed and seemingly successful woman should be either shy or nervous. He had never, he thought in a spirit of self-mockery, seen such eyes... And set in that face... So serene, so astonishingly... well, it was more than merely beautiful—fascinating, rather, with those high cheekbones, that exciting mouth, such a rippling cascade of titian hair.
He caught at himself, smiling inwardly at such an uncharacteristic response, but found he was unwilling to deny himself the pleasure of analysis. Perfect skin too. A bloom like a peach—and that was scarcely original. And for a writer too.
‘Not well.’ Such an effort to keep her voice so calm and even, but no one, she thought, no one could possibly guess that her heart was agitating wildly against her ribs, that her palms were so moist they threatened her grip on her fork. ‘I’ve been here several times but always for very short spells so I can’t claim to know it.’
Now she could return her attention to her plate, spoon some of the delicious terrine into her mouth. ‘You?’ Another glance in his direction confirmed what she feared, that he was still focused on her, bringing a wave of unwelcome heat to her body.
His faint smile told her he had noticed, but he had the grace to look away, to apply himself to the food on his plate and at the same time deal with her question. ‘The same. I don’t know it well, but since the book I’m writing has a scene set here I thought I’d come and do some research before getting down to the grind of actual writing. All writers are like that, you know-any excuse to avoid the tyranny of the word processor.’
‘Mmm. So I’ve heard. But I thought it was invented to make life easier for you.’
‘That’s the theory.’ He slanted another glance towards her; he was surprising himself with his desire to divert and amuse this woman. ‘But I’m wholly unconvinced. I must be honest and admit that writing is a love-hate affair, almost a voluntary slavery. There are times when I want to be rid of the whole demanding business, and then... as soon as I have finished what I had decided was to be my last... something jogs the brain. One or two ideas which have been drifting loose seem determined to come together and so, before I can do a thing about it, I’m off. Back to the treadmill.’
‘Ben!’ Jenny was mildly reproving. ‘You make it sound as if you have to labour over every word, and yet your prose...each word you write... flows so effortlessly onto the page.’
‘Ah...’ He shook his head in self-mocking derision. ‘That is where the genius comes in.’
There was a wave of laughter round the table before the argument was taken up at a more individual level, which gave him the opportunity to turn again to the woman by his side. ‘And now you know all about me, it’s my turn to hear about you.’
She had little choice but to turn and look at him, lips curving into a smile that was more than a little reluctant. He was so very easy to look at, but that had always been so. Tall, good-looking, arresting without being conventionally handsome, dark silky hair... Even now she could feel a throb at the thought of twisting it through her fingers. Shorter now, of course, and the buccaneering look had gone, along with the beard. And those slender well-marked eyebrows, which would arch upwards when he was waiting for an answer... as he was now.
‘But there isn’t a great deal to tell.’ By any standard of veracity that was an outright lie. Her life, though reasonably conventional on the surface, hid a dark and wounded side which she refused to discuss, especially with a mystery writer, and certainly not with...
But he was obviously waiting for elucidation, so in a move which was habitual, defensive—one she found herself using when she felt particularly vulnerable—she raised her left hand to brush a strand of hair from her cheek, displaying her rings before allowing her hand to drop.
‘I don’t know if Robert mentioned it, but I have my own small fashion company—mainly knitwear, until now mostly made in the UK, but an increasing number are now produced in Hong Kong. I was there for several days and Jenny invited me here for a break before going home. It’s a plan which has been thwarted several times in the last two years—’
‘And I’m delighted you were able to make it at last.’ From the other side of the table Jenny interrupted, then there was a slight hiatus as plates were cleared, fresh dishes brought by the unobtrusive maids.
And Ellie, as she listened half-heartedly to what Pete, on her other side was trying to explain, wished with all her heart she had flown back to Heathrow. By this time she would have been with Charlie. All the reawakening heartbreak would have been avoided. Earlier this evening she had been right to decide this was not her milieu, that she was out of touch with this kind of socialising.
She experienced a sensation of despair as she allowed her attention to drift round the sophisticated room: light net curtains billowing in a faint breeze, modern paintings set against cream walls, a green marble dining table. Green marble! And with the most intricate veining in gold. Food arranged with precise artistry on black plates, each a study...
A sudden flash of recollection brought a smile to her lips. She was thinking of the pot of stew she so frequently put on the table—the scrubbed kitchen table—the homely loaf of bread which she might have made during a therapeutic break but which was inevitably lopsided and collapsing, though still ideal for mopping up gravy. The bowl of hastily put together salad leaves...
Light years from this arrangement of skewered seafood surrounded by tiny mounds of saffron rice and compositions—the word was not too extravagant—of vegetables she didn’t begin to