A Defender's Heart. Tara Quinn Taylor
because of the ocean views. Heather couldn’t get enough of the water that kept rolling to shore, century after century. She wasn’t sure if Cedar had ever given the Pacific’s grandeur a second thought.
Charles had. He respected the ocean’s power. Its unending energy. He’d engaged in long talks with her about it as they’d walked, hand in hand, along the beach, watching the tide come in and go out.
“New outfit,” Cedar said, as he stood to pull out her chair and then, as she sat, took his seat again.
She knew he didn’t like it and was satisfied with her choice. But then she said, “Raine gave it to me. I have to wear it so when she asks me if I did, I can tell her yes.”
She was making excuses. Felt like she was sliding backward. She had no reason or need to please Cedar.
“I like it,” he told her. “It looks good on you.” The sexy grin on his face, the warmth in his straightforward dark brown gaze, didn’t give even a hint of untruth.
She didn’t like the outfit. That was the truth. She’d worn it to spite him. It hadn’t worked; she didn’t like that, either.
“But then, anything looks good on you,” Cedar added, picking up his menu. “Or nothing.”
Her feminine parts filled with heat.
And she was ashamed.
* * *
HE WAS A damned fraud. A man who’d created situations to fit what he knew people needed so he could get what he wanted. He’d vowed to himself he’d stop. And here he was...still orchestrating the situation.
The gray dress pants, white shirt, gray jacket and gray-and-white tie were proof of that. Although he’d gotten rid of most of his closet full of hand-tailored dress clothes, like an alcoholic pouring his stash down the drain, he’d held on to a few things. And he’d deliberately worn some of them that morning because he knew they’d be what Heather would expect to see. They’d put her at ease. He’d worn them purposely, to manipulate her comfort level.
Like he was the same man who’d used his lover to get the information he needed to manipulate a win.
His last win.
He’d ordered her sweet tea and his own black coffee. She glanced at both as she sat down, but said nothing. She immediately went for the tea, though. Took a long sip.
Sweet tea was her weakness.
He used to be, too.
“You said you had business to discuss,” she said, not even looking at the menu. He’d figured they’d order first. Maybe even wait to broach his discussion until after they’d eaten. She’d been on his mind pretty much nonstop since he’d left her parents’ house two nights before.
She was making a mistake, marrying Charles. Not because she wasn’t marrying him—not that he’d ever asked—but because there was no passion between her and the dentist.
If anyone knew and would recognize Heather’s passion, it was Cedar. He’d been prepared to see her sharing it with another man.
That hadn’t happened. Which meant nothing in terms of him. It meant only that she was making a mistake with her dentist.
Probably not a conversation starter at the moment.
“I have a favor to ask,” he said, looking around for Molly, the waitress who’d taken their drink orders.
Heather held her purse in her hands. “I’m not going to—”
“Please, hear me out,” he interrupted before she could walk out on him. No matter how much he deserved it, he wasn’t up to having her leave him again. The first time had just about killed him.
Killed the old him, anyway. It had left him a shadow of a man, one who lived to make amends—not to be happy.
“The favor, it isn’t for me.”
“Of course it’s for you! Couched in a client’s need, perhaps, but it’s about your win. I’m not going back down that road, Cedar.”
He swallowed. Pursed his lips so they wouldn’t open until he had himself in check. He refused to share his truths; he couldn’t play with her emotions that way. The turns his life had taken were personal. His alone. They weren’t to get her back. Or even to show her that he’d become a better man. He was a man who’d lost his way, and that was a burden he would carry forever. Telling her he was trying to change could serve his own good and that was the old him—serving his own good.
He wanted to ask her how she’d been. To know that she really was over him. That she didn’t still carry in the depths of her heart all the pain he’d caused her by putting his need to win above everything else. That there were no lasting consequences in her life because he’d lost sight of what mattered most.
And yet...he suspected her dentist was one of those consequences.
Suspected she was settling for safety because she couldn’t bear the idea of being hurt so badly again.
He didn’t want that to be the case.
Didn’t have time for more amends at the moment.
But this was Heather. If his actions had pushed her into a passionless relationship, if he’d driven her to a passionless life, he’d have to do whatever it took to undo the damage.
He’d figure that out. Take appropriate action if necessary. But first...
“I’m convinced a young woman is in trouble, that she’s protecting a man she thinks loves her. She might have done some things that could put her in prison, but...”
Heather shook her head. “I’m not helping you free another criminal who should be serving time. I understand that United States law allows everyone the right to a proper defense. I believe in and uphold our laws. But I will not be party to working the system in the name of preserving someone’s rights. I won’t be used again, Cedar. Thank you for the lunch invitation, but I won’t be staying.”
She stood, her purse slung over her shoulder.
“She’s not my client.” He had no clients.
Heather took one step and stopped. He stood up, too, facing her. “She’s the victim of a former client. I need you to help me get her to tell us the truth, Heather. Help me nail this guy before he kills her.”
“How exactly are you going to nail him?”
“I’m going to take whatever evidence we can get out of her and go straight to the police.”
She dropped back into her seat, and he slowly lowered himself into his.
“Isn’t that a conflict of interest?” She eyed him warily, and it stabbed him to know she didn’t trust him at all. He wasn’t surprised. He’d known. Like the ass he was, he’d betrayed her. But sitting there, seeing the evidence of the fallout...it hurt.
He’d never cheated on her. Never even wanted to. But he hadn’t been trustworthy. He’d never out-and-out lied to her. He’d just manipulated the truth to get what he wanted.
“It would be a conflict of interest if he were still a client.”
“Even a former client... He has protection under the law from anything he might have told you. You could lose your license, and any competent attorney will get him off...”
“Let me worry about my license.” At the moment, it was little more than a piece of paper. One he’d gladly burn if it would make things right. He knew he’d put criminals back on the street to bolster his own reputation. And he knew he had so much to do before he could even think about practicing law again.
He wasn’t sure he’d ever trust himself to do it.
Because while it was absolutely true that everyone deserved a good defense, in the end, he hadn’t been about his client’s rights.