The One and Only Ivan. Katherine Applegate
my TV.
“He looks lonely,” they say.
Not long ago, a little boy stood before my glass, tears streaming down his smooth red cheeks. “He must be the loneliest gorilla in the world,” he said, clutching his mother’s hand.
At times like that, I wish humans could understand me the way I can understand them.
It’s not so bad, I wanted to tell the little boy. With enough time, you can get used to almost anything.
TV
My visitors are often surprised when they see the TV Mack put in my domain. They seem to find it odd, the sight of a gorilla staring at tiny humans in a box.
Sometimes I wonder, though: Isn’t the way they stare at me, sitting in my tiny box, just as strange?
My TV is old. It doesn’t always work, and sometimes days will go by before anyone remembers to turn it on.
I’ll watch anything, but I’m particularly fond of cartoons, with their bright jungle colours. I especially enjoy it when someone slips on a banana peel.
Bob, my dog friend, loves TV almost as much as I do. He prefers to watch professional bowling and cat-food commercials.
Bob and I have seen many romance movies too. In a romance there is much hugging and sometimes face licking.
I have yet to see a single romance starring a gorilla.
We also enjoy old western movies. In a western, someone always says, “This town ain’t big enough for the both of us, Sheriff.” In a western, you can tell who the good guys are and who the bad guys are, and the good guys always win.
Bob says westerns are nothing like real life.
The Nature Show
I have been in my domain for nine thousand eight hundred and fifty-five days.
Alone.
For a while, when I was young and foolish, I thought I was the last gorilla on earth.
I tried not to dwell on it. Still, it’s hard to stay upbeat when you think there are no more of you.
Then one night, after I watched a movie about men in black hats with guns and feeble-minded horses, a different show came on.
It was not a cartoon, not a romance, not a western.
I saw a lush forest. I heard birds murmuring. The grass moved. The trees rustled.
Then I saw him. He was bit threadbare and scrawny, and not as good-looking as I am, to be honest. But sure enough, he was a gorilla.
As suddenly as he’d appeared, the gorilla vanished, and in his place was a scruffy white animal called, I learned, a polar bear, and then a chubby water creature called a manatee, and then another animal, and another.
All night I sat wondering about the gorilla I’d glimpsed. Where did he live? Would he ever come to visit? If there was a he somewhere, could there be a she as well?
Or was it just the two of us in all the world, trapped in our own separate boxes?
Stella
Stella says she is sure I will see another real, live gorilla someday, and I believe her because she is even older than I and has eyes like black stars and knows more than I will ever know.
Stella is a mountain. Next to her I am a rock, and Bob is a grain of sand.
Every night, when the stores close and the moon washes the world with milky light, Stella and I talk.
We don’t have much in common, but we have enough. We are huge and alone and we both love yogurt raisins.
Sometimes Stella tells stories of her childhood, of leafy canopies hidden by mist and the busy songs of flowing water. Unlike me, she recalls every detail of her past.
Stella loves the moon, with its untroubled smile. I love the feel of the sun on my belly.
She says, “It is quite a belly, my friend,” and I say, “Thank you, and so is yours.”
We talk, but not too much. Elephants, like gorillas, do not waste words.
Stella used to perform in a large and famous circus, and she still does some of those tricks for our show. During one stunt, Stella stands on her hind legs while Snickers jumps on her head.
It’s hard to stand on your hind legs when you weigh more than forty men.
If you are a circus elephant and you stand on your hind legs while a dog jumps on your head, you get a treat. If you do not, the claw-stick comes swinging.
Elephant hide is thick as bark on an ancient tree, but a claw-stick can pierce it like a leaf.
Once Stella saw a trainer hit a bull elephant with a claw-stick. A bull is like a silverback, noble, contained, calm like a cobra is calm. When the claw-stick caught in the bull’s flesh, he tossed the trainer into the air with his tusk.
The man flew, Stella said, like an ugly bird. She never saw the bull again.
Stella’s Trunk
Stella’s trunk is a miracle. She can pick up a single peanut with elegant precision, tickle a passing mouse, tap the shoulder of a dozing keeper.
Her trunk is remarkable, but still it can’t unlatch the door of her tumble-down domain.
Circling Stella’s legs are long-ago scars from the chains she wore as a youth: her bracelets, she calls them. When she worked at the famous circus Stella had to balance on a pedestal for her most difficult trick. One day, she fell off and injured her foot. When she went lame and lagged behind the other elephants, the circus sold her to Mack.
Stella’s foot never healed completely. She limps when she walks, and sometimes her foot gets infected when she stands in one place for too long.
Last winter, Stella’s foot swelled to twice its normal size. She had a fever, and she lay on the damp, cold floor of her domain for five days.
They were very long days.
Even now, I’m not sure she’s completely better. She never complains, though, so it’s hard to know.
At the Big Top Mall, no one bothers with iron shackles. A bristly rope tied to a bolt in the floor is all that’s required.
“They think I’m too old to cause trouble,” Stella says.
“Old age,” she says, “is a powerful disguise.”
A Plan
It’s been two days since anyone’s come to visit. Mack is in a bad mood. He says we are losing money hand over fist. He says he is going to sell the whole lot of us.
When Thelma, a blue and yellow macaw, demands “Kiss me, big boy,” for the third time in ten minutes, Mack throws a soda can at her. Thelma’s wings are clipped so that she can’t fly, but she still can hop. She leaps aside just in the nick of time. “Pucker up!” she says with a shrill whistle.
Mack stomps to his office and slams the door shut.
I wonder if my visitors have grown tired of me. Maybe if I learn a trick or two, it would help.
Humans do seem to enjoy watching me eat. Luckily, I am always hungry. I am a gifted eater.
A silverback must eat forty-five pounds of food a day if he wants to stay a silverback. Forty-five pounds of fruit and leaves and seeds and stems and bark and vines and rotten wood.
Also, I enjoy the occasional insect.
I am going to try to eat more. Maybe then we will get more visitors. Tomorrow I will eat fifty pounds of food. Maybe even fifty-five.
That should make Mack happy.