Deadly Vows. Shirlee McCoy
for their marriage?
Olivia had asked herself the same questions over and over again in the days after she’d fled Chicago, but she had no answers. All she knew for sure was that Ford didn’t want kids. Too much trouble, he’d said years ago. Too many complications. He had too much riding on his career and too little time to devote to the mess and chaos children brought.
He’d be shocked if he found out he was going to be a father.
Appalled.
Angry.
There were plenty of words Olivia could think of that would describe Ford’s reaction to impeding fatherhood. None of them were good.
It was a good thing she knew it. Otherwise, she’d pick up the phone and do what she knew she wasn’t supposed to. She’d call Ford. She’d tell him that in a few short months he was going to be a father.
And she’d probably end up dying because she’d contacted him.
After all, wasn’t that the first rule of witness protection?
No contact with anyone or anything from the past.
People who followed the rule lived. People who didn’t died. It was as simple as that.
What wasn’t simple was forgetting the past. Moving on. Letting go. She’d loved Ford for a long time. Even during their yearlong separation, she’d loved him, longed for his company and prayed that someday things would be different and they could be together again.
God hadn’t answered that prayer.
But He had given Olivia something she’d always dreamed of. A baby. She needed to focus on that. Forget about everything else.
Which was exactly why she shouldn’t be thinking about Ford.
As the key witness in the prosecution’s murder case against Chicago crime family scion Vincent “Bloodbath” Martino, Olivia couldn’t afford to make a mistake. Entering witness protection would only keep her safe as long as she followed the rules, and following the rules was only easy when she didn’t dwell on the things she could no longer have. Like a relationship with the only man she’d ever loved, a man who’d broken her heart a hundred times but who still deserved to know he was going to be a father.
“Just stop it!” she muttered, grabbing her waitress uniform off the bed and shoving it into the hamper. It had been a long day. A long couple of weeks, really. Being relocated from Billings, Montana, to Pine Bluff, Montana, had knocked her off kilter. Although, it was more the reason for the relocation rather than the move itself that had shaken her. Two women in witness protection had been murdered in Montana. Both women had green eyes and were around Olivia’s age. The U.S. Marshals weren’t sure if Olivia had been the true target of the attacks. The fact that she had blue eyes rather than green made the chances slim, but Micah McGraw, Olivia’s contact in the marshal’s office, hadn’t wanted to take any chances.
So she’d been moved.
Quickly.
So quickly she hadn’t had time to say goodbye to some of the friends she’d made in Billings or to tell her church family there that she was leaving. Nearly four months of pretending to be someone she wasn’t, blending into a new community, and it was over. She’d packed a small bag, climbed into a waiting car and been whisked away.
And now she was tired. Jumping at shadows. Imagining danger around every corner.
She sighed, grabbing a sweater and throwing it over her T-shirt. What she needed was a cup of tea, a few hours of mindless television and a good night’s sleep. She’d feel better in the morning.
The telephone rang as she walked into the living room, and she jumped, her heart racing.
“For goodness’ sake, Olivia. It’s just the phone,” she mumbled as she lifted the receiver and pressed it to her ear. “Hello?”
“Olivia? It’s Lorna Scott. I know this is short notice, but our preschool ballet teacher is sick. Any chance you can fill in for her?” Lorna asked, her tone brusque. Director of Pine Bluff’s YMCA program, she was a frequent patron of the diner where Olivia worked, and often stopped in for breakfast during Olivia’s shift. She’d been the first one in years to ask if Olivia was a dancer, and the question had sparked a long conversation about the YMCA’s programs. It hadn’t taken long for Lorna to offer Olivia a job as a substitute ballet teacher at the Y. It had taken Olivia a little longer to accept. She’d had to weigh the danger of participating in an activity connected to her previous life with the danger of making Lorna curious.
In the end, she’d decided that she’d rather accept the job than answer questions about why she couldn’t. Too many lies made it too easy to make mistakes. “What time is the class?”
“Six.”
Olivia glanced at her watch, hesitating. It was only five. Plenty of time to get ready and go. She just wasn’t sure she wanted to. She’d felt off all week. Nervous and even more on edge than usual. “I—”
“If you’ve got plans, I’m sure I can find someone else.” There was a question in Lorna’s words, and Olivia knew that refusing to take over the class meant explaining why she couldn’t. Unfortunately, she had no real excuse.
“That’s all right. I can come,” she said, knowing she had to live her life as if she had nothing to be afraid of. As if she really was Olivia Jarrod from Hollywood, Florida, newly single and starting over with a new job in a new state.
“You’re sure?”
“It’s a forty-five-minute class, right?”
“That’s right.”
“Then no problem.”
“See you at six.”
Olivia hung up and paced to the front window. Outside, the sun was still high, its golden presence comforting. During daylight hours, Olivia felt almost safe. It was night that she dreaded. Darkness bred fear and stirred up memories she’d rather not dwell on. Not just of the murder she’d witnessed but of the years she’d spent alone waiting for Ford to come home from work, waiting for him to remember their anniversary or to wish her a happy birthday, waiting for her dreams of a happy home and loving family to come true. So much time wasted waiting for something that would never happen.
Too bad it had taken her so long to realize the truth. If she’d walked away two years into their marriage or three or even four rather than the ten it had taken, she and Ford would have been divorced a long time ago, and nothing that had happened in the past four months would have happened. She wouldn’t have let Ford into her house, wouldn’t have believed that he might really want something different from their marriage than what they’d had. She wouldn’t have been so hurt when he’d interrupted a conversation about their future to take a business phone call.
And she wouldn’t have run from her Chicago home and straight into a scene out of a crime drama—two men walking near the river, the moon bright and full above them. One pulling a gun, pointing it at the other’s head and firing. A body falling into the river. A face that Olivia recognized from the newspaper.
She shuddered, pushing the memory away. It was better to focus on the present and the future. As much as she wished she hadn’t seen a man murdered in cold blood, she couldn’t regret that night. It had given her a precious gift. God had given her a precious gift. She needed to focus on that and forget everything else.
“We’ll be okay, baby. I have to believe that,” she said. God had gotten her through that terrifying night. He’d get her through the next month, and He’d get her through Vincent Martino’s trial.
Her stomach rumbled, reminding her that she hadn’t eaten since lunch. It would be a good idea to grab something before going to the YMCA, but Olivia was afraid to. Her stomach hadn’t been quite right since she’d gotten pregnant, and the months hadn’t eased the discomfort. Her new obstetrician had assured Olivia that she’d be feeling better soon, but soon hadn’t come