Forbidden Pleasure. Robyn Donald
do you prefer dolphins to men?’ he asked, a lazy smile robbing the question of impertinence.
Ianthe laughed. ‘You know where you are with dolphins,’ she said, ‘but, no, I don’t.’
‘Where are you with dolphins?’
‘You’re in their country, and you’re a curiosity,’ she said readily. She’d been talking far too much about herself, so she said, ‘You’ve spent some time in England, I imagine, from your accent.’
He looked amused. ‘My mother is the source of my accent. She has very strong opinions on the proper way to speak, and the ruthlessness to enforce them.’
‘Persuading your children not to sound like some refugee from a cartoon is a never-ending business, I’m told.’ Ianthe smiled as she thought of Tricia’s battles with her five-year-old.
‘I have no children,’ he told her, his voice smooth and impersonal, ‘but my friends certainly say so. I’m not married.’
He’d thought she was fishing. Fighting back her indignation, Ianthe tried to ignore the way her heart fluttered and soared.
He asked, ‘Will you go back to working in television?’
‘They don’t want a front-person with a scar down her leg. It doesn’t look good, and the limp is ungraceful.’ Because it didn’t matter, her voice was as pragmatic as her words.
She didn’t quite hear what he said under his breath, but judging from the glitter in his eyes the succinct phrase was probably rude. Astonished, she looked up into a hard face and scornful, searing eyes.
‘Did they tell you that?’ he asked, on a note that sent a shiver up her spine.
‘No, but it’s the truth. Viewers don’t like their programmes spoiled by ugly reminders that the real world has carnivores prowling it. People complain bitterly if they see insects eating each other on screen! Probably because most of us live in cities now we want to believe that the natural world is one of beauty and meaning and harmony.’
The harshness faded from his expression as he leaned back into his chair. ‘But you don’t believe that?’
She shrugged. ‘It’s extraordinarily beautiful, but it’s also unsentimental. Animals kill and eat to survive. They’re not pretty different-shaped humans with human attitudes. Even pack animals, which we can understand best, have a rigid hierarchy with crushing rules that would drive most of us insane.’
‘But we’re animals too.’
‘Of course we are.’ Made uneasy by the focused intentness of his gaze, Ianthe resisted the impulse to wriggle. ‘Our problem is that we know what we’re doing. Most animals live by instinct.’
‘So it’s not cruel for animals to drive an ill or wounded member from the pack, but humans shouldn’t?’
For a moment she didn’t realise what he meant. When she did she gave him a startled, angry glance. ‘Animals drive their sick away or abandon them because their presence attracts predators. If you’re using me as an instance, I’m not ill, but my wound could well have put an end to the series’ existence if people had stopped watching. Besides, I was in hospital while they were filming the last programmes so they had to get someone to take my place. I have no hard feelings.’
‘As I said before, you’re astonishingly tolerant,’ he said, his smile hard and humourless.
Oh, she could be enormously tolerant. The loss of her job was the least of her problems.
He said, ‘Will you always have that limp?’ He glanced at her trouser-clad leg.
For the first time Ianthe realised that most people when confronted with her scar did one of two things—the rude stared and commented while the polite kept their eyes fixed on her face. Both responses irritated her because they seemed to imply that she was less than perfect, less than human. Alex, however, looked at her leg without aversion.
‘Always,’ she said, steadying her voice so that her self-pity didn’t show.
‘You seem very relaxed about it.’
Although her unusual frankness had given him the opportunity to probe, she’d told him enough about herself. ‘I try not to worry about things I can’t control,’ she said coolly. ‘It doesn’t always work, but fretting over the past is just a waste of time.’
‘Fretting over anything is a waste of time.’
Nodding, she let the sun soak into her, acutely aware of the strumming of the cicadas, now reaching for a crescendo. However, balancing the shrill stridulation were other sounds—the soft rustling of reeds swaying against each other, the lazy cry of a gull that had drifted inland from the coast a few miles away, and the sound of a speedboat on the one lake that was open for powerboats, its intrusive roar muted by intervening hills to a pleasant hum.
And a fantail—the same one, perhaps?—black and cheeky as it darted around collecting insects from under the vine over the pergola.
Accepting her tacit refusal to discuss her leg any further, Alex Considine said, ‘Do you know anything about the way dune lakes are formed? Why are there lakes in this valley, but not in the valleys on either side?’
‘Because under this one there’s an impermeable ironstone pan. Rainwater collects above it and forms the lakes. The sand is silica, which is why it’s so white.’
‘So this is a rare formation?’
‘No, there are similar lakes wherever there are sand-hills—on this coast they go right up to North Cape.’
He asked, ‘Did you do geology at university also?’
‘I’m just an interested amateur,’ she said, getting up. ‘I must go now. Thank you so much for the drink, and I hope your Range Rover is driveable soon.’
‘It doesn’t matter,’ Alex said calmly, rising to tower over her. ‘Mark isn’t hurt and neither was anyone else; that’s the important thing.’
Ianthe wanted to convince herself she was grateful that he didn’t try to persuade her to stay. For all his exotic façade he was far too easy to talk to, and she’d revealed more about herself than she’d intended to. Much more than he’d told her about himself.
As they were going towards the front door Ianthe’s leg failed her again. It was only a slight stumble, but Alex’s hand shot out instantly, closing with hard strength onto her arm and supporting her. Ianthe had been stung by jellyfish; that was how she felt now—shock, and then a sensation like the thrust of a spear tempered on the edge of ice and fire.
Did he feel it too? She looked up, saw the beautiful mouth compress, harden.
‘All right?’ he asked abruptly, releasing her when he was sure she had regained her balance.
She managed to smile. ‘Yes, thank you.’
‘Do you need to rest?’
‘No,’ she said, adding with hasty firmness, ‘And I don’t need to be carried, either.’
He was frowning, the brilliant eyes resting on her leg. ‘Will it always be likely to let you down?’
‘No, they tell me it’s going to be a lot better as soon as the muscles strengthen.’
Her surgeon had suggested she walk to build up the muscles, but she hadn’t because she’d cringed at the idea of people pitying her as she limped by. Well, that very evening she’d begin exercising, and ignore the stares and whispered comments.
The decision buoyed her spirits. With erect back and shoulders she said goodbye and drove carefully down the drive, concentrating fiercely to stop the odd desolation that roiled inside her.
At the bach she pushed all the windows open before going out onto the verandah overlooking the lake and collapsing into one of the