The Thunderbolt Pony. Stacy Gregg

The Thunderbolt Pony - Stacy  Gregg


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tantalisingly close to giving in to the urge to do it again. It takes every bit of my willpower to fight it and all the time I can hear Willard’s voice talking me down, but it sounds fuzzy through the buzz of the bees in my brain.

      “On a scale of one to ten,” he is saying, “where are you now Evie?”

      “… eight,” I pant out the word. “I can’t breathe!”

      I want to make the world safe!

      “Evie,” Willard Fox says my name like he’s invoking a god. “You. Can. Do. This! I want you to say out loud with me: ‘I’m in charge, OCD. I’m taking the reins!”

      I look at him and I feel a lump in my throat that blocks the words.

      “Come on, Evie!” Willard says. “You don’t want to be controlled like this so do something about it. You need to fight it. Do it!”

      And there, in the middle of his office, I hear his voice and then I hear another voice and it’s mine but it doesn’t sound like me. I’m screaming. “I’m in charge, OCD. I’m taking the reins!”

      When I finish shouting the words, I burst into tears. Great big gasping sobs, and Willard is right there with me, telling me it will be OK and to take breaths, big deep breaths.

      “Good work, Evie,” he says to me. “I’ll see you next week.”

      ***

      Fear is not static – it is a living thing. Like the earth beneath my feet, constantly moving and changing. It sounds crazy, but looking back, at that moment in Willard’s rooms the zip on my backpack was just as terrifying to me as this half-a-tonne of Charolais bull in front of me is.

      In the beam of my torch, the bull is bearing down on me. I know what’s coming and I’m about to close my eyes and brace myself for the death blow, the sharp stab of the lethal point of the horn into my gut. But the impact doesn’t come.

      Thunder rolls through the ground once more and I look up and see a pale shadow appear from the darkness, galloping its way towards us and coming between me and Jock and the bull. In my torch beam, the grey dapples bleach away so that the horse looks almost white and the tail that unfurls behind him is flecked with stars. He looks like a creature from a Greek myth himself, like Pegasus. But he’s totally real, and my heart soars.

      It’s my pony. It is Gus.

       CHAPTER 5

       Pegasus and Athena

      Gus charges in at a gallop, and he pulls to a halt right between me and the Charolais. I see his eyes, dark and burning, as he squares off against the bull, and I feel the hairs on the back of my neck stand up at the heat of the desert blood in him. Gus taunts the Charolais, flashing back and forth in front of him in a high-stepping trot, then circling around, keeping just far enough away so that the bull cannot reach him. I keep my torch trained on them and its beam becomes the spotlight illuminating a grand performance as Gus dances rings around the Charolais. The dance is deadly, but there’s such grace and beauty to it. He spins and arches his neck, hocks driving beneath him so that one moment he almost seems to trot on the spot and the next he’s flying forward, his mane whipping in the vortex created by his acceleration. I have never seen him look more Arabian than he does at this moment.

      Compared to the fluid beauty of my horse’s movement, the Charolais looks like an old, punch-drunk prizefighter who’s been beaten too many times in the ring. He’s a lumbering oaf, slow and witless. He staggers around, bewildered by Gus’s display, and then, shaking his enormous head as if he’s been dazed and suddenly woken up, he gives a snort and charges. He is too slow. Gus is already gone, and the bull misses completely and now Gus loops behind him and circles round and round, still just out of reach in his high-striding trot, and then as he dashes past once more he shoots off, moving purposefully away from me and Jock so that the bull gives chase. They disappear into the darkness and that’s when I know we have our chance to get to safety. I grab Jock by the collar and we run.

      Jock is on his feet and he’s matching my stride. I still don’t know how badly he’s injured from the bull’s strike but despite his wounds he can move well enough. He bounds on in front of me, leading the way, and my torch beam is wobbling so that the world seems to fling about in front of my eyes but I keep running. Then up ahead of us I can see the tree where I tied Gus last night and I know we have somehow found our way back to camp.

      My fingers fumble to unzip the tent. I can hear Moxy yowling her distress inside. I scoop her up in my arms, and she does this thing she does when she is really, really pleased to see me where she bites my face. And then she even smooches all over Jock, which is unusual because she’s mostly a bit stand-offish with him and not all cuddly like she is with Gus. I see her sniff at Jock’s side, examining him, and he whimpers and begins licking the spot with his tongue and I can see now where the bull got him. There’s a cut on his flank where he got nicked by the tip of the horn. Even though there’s blood, the wound is shallow. If I was a vet I don’t think I’d even do stitches, and Jock is licking it clean so he will be OK.

      Jock and I lie there beside each other, both of us panting, exhausted from running all the way back, Moxy purring all around us. I shine the torch on my watch and see that it’s four am. I want to get out and search for Gus again but it would be better to wait until it’s light. At least I know he’s close now and we can find him when the dawn comes, but I’m not going back into the dark with the bull still out there. Gus can outrun him, I’m certain of that. But we’re not as quick. And so we lie there and when I get my breath back, I pick up my backpack and I zip and unzip it again. I do my rituals, until my heart is beating at the regular pace once more.

      Not all rituals are bad. Mum used to say it was “our ritual”, whenever we went to see Willard Fox, to stop off on the way back in Parnassus at the dairy to get an ice cream.

      If my friend Gemma was working, I’d always get a single cone of vanilla because Gemma does big scoops. But if Scary Mary was behind the counter then I’d have to go for a Choc Bomb because Scary Mary’s scoops are too stingy.

      Scary Mary owns the Parnassus Dairy. She doesn’t let you browse the Horse & Pony either. She has a grumpy handwritten sign up over the magazine section that says: “Please purchase before you read. This is not a Library.”

      Anyway, I’m in my tent doing my ritual with the backpack, and I’m thinking about Willard Fox and the very last time I saw him. We were rating all the things that give me OCD on a scale of one to ten, and then Willard Fox came to my backpack.

      “On a scale of one to ten,” Willard Fox asks me, “where would you put the backpack, Evie?”

      The backpack is my portable OCD world. You could take the sum of all my fears and shove them together and they would fit neatly inside that backpack. I look at Willard Fox. “A ten.”

      “Evie,” Willard says, “I feel like we’ve been here together in the foothills for a long time now and you’ve done all this stuff in preparation, and now you’re ready. It’s time to go up Mount Everest.”

      I know what he wants and it makes the bees in my brain start humming.

      I mutter something about how I’ve done enough. My OCD is much better now, and maybe I don’t even need to come and see him any more, but Willard Fox still wants to look inside my backpack.

      “What’s in there?” he asks me.

      “It’s personal,” I say.

      Willard Fox leans forward, his elbows on his knees. “Do you know what rust is, Evie?”

      “Like on a car?” I say.

      Willard Fox nods. “The thing about rust is, if you remove it, you have to get rid of all of it because if there’s still a little bit of it left then it grows back again.”

      He


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