The Changeling. Walter Besant
of sitting down, the patient stepped forward, and gazed into the doctor's face. Then she clasped her hands.
"Thank God," she cried; "he is the man!"
"I do not understand, madam. I see so many faces. The name – is it an American name?"
"You think of my husband. But I am English-born, and so is he."
"Well, Mrs. Haveril, even the richest of us get our little disorders. What is yours?"
"I have been very ill, doctor; but it was not for that that I came here."
"Then, madam, I do not understand why you do come here."
"You don't remember me? But I see that you don't." Her trembling ceased when she began to speak. "Yet I remember you very well. You have changed very little in four and twenty years."
"Indeed?"
"I heard some people at the hotel talking about you. They said you were the first man in the world for some complaints. And I remembered your name, and – and – I wondered if you were the man. And you are the man."
"This is a very busy morning, madam. If you would kindly come to the point at once. What do you want with me?"
"Doctor, I once had a child – a boy – the finest boy you ever saw."
"It is not unusual," the doctor began, but stopped, because the woman's face was filled with a great trouble. "But pray go on, madam."
"I had a boy," she repeated, and burst into a flood of tears.
The doctor inclined his head. There is no other answer possible when a complete stranger bursts into tears from some unknown cause.
"I lost the boy," she proceeded. "I – I – I lost the boy."
"He died?"
She shook her head. "No. But I lost my boy," she repeated. "My husband deserted me. I was alone in a strange town. My relations had cast me off because I married an actor. I was penniless, and I could find no work. I sold the boy to save him from the workhouse, and to get the money to follow my husband."
"Good Heavens! I remember! It was at Birmingham. Your husband's name was – was – ?"
"His professional name was Anthony."
"True – true. I remember it all. Yes – yes. The child was taken by a lady. I remember it perfectly. And you are the deserted wife, and the rich American is your husband?"
"No. I followed my husband from place to place; but I had to cross the Atlantic. I came up with him in a town in a Western State. When I found him, he got a divorce for incompatibility of temper. I lost both my husband and my child, and neither of them died."
"Oh! And then – then you came back to look for the boy?"
"No; I married John Haveril. It was before he made his money."
"And now you come to me for information about the child, who must be a man by this time?"
"I've never forgotten him, doctor. I never can forget him. Every day since then I have thought of him. I said, 'Now he's six; now he's ten; now he's twenty.' And I've tried to think of him as he grew up. Always – always I have had the boy in my mind."
"Yes; but surely – Perhaps you had no more children?"
"No; never any more. And last spring I fell ill – very ill. I was – "
"What was the matter?"
She told him the symptoms.
"Yes; nerves, of course. Fretting after the child."
"You know. The American doctor did not. Well, and while I was lying in my dark room, I had a dream. It came again. It kept on coming. A dream which told me that I should see my child again if I came to London. So my husband brought me over."
"And you think that you will find your child?"
"I am sure that I shall. It is the only thing that I have prayed for. Oh, you need not warn me about excitement; I know the danger. I don't care so very much about living; but I want that dream to come true. I must find the boy."
"You might as well look for him at the bottom of the sea. Why, my dear lady, your boy was intended to take the place of a dead child; I am sure he was. I know nothing at all about him. There is no clue – no chance of finding the child."
"Do you know nothing?"
"Upon my honour, madam, I cannot even guess. The lady did not give me her name, and I made no inquiries."
"Oh!" Her face fell. "I had such hopes. At the theatre, yesterday, I saw a young man who might have been my son – tall, fair, blue-eyed. Oh, do you know nothing?"
"Nothing at all," he replied decidedly. "And you came here," he went on, "remembering my name, and wondering whether it was the same man? Well, Mrs. Haveril, it is the same man, and I remember the whole business perfectly. Now go on."
"Where is that child, doctor?"
"I say that I don't know. I never did know. The lady gave me the money, received the child at the railway station. You brought it to the waiting-room. She had an Indian ayah with her, and the train carried her off, baby and all. That is all I can tell you."
Mrs. Haveril sighed. "Is that all?"
"Madam, since such precautions were taken, it is very certain that no one knew of the matter except the lady herself, and she will certainly not tell, because, as I have already told you, the case looked like substitution, and not adoption."
"What can I do, then?"
"You can do nothing. I would advise you to put the whole business out of your head and forget it. You can do nothing."
"I cannot forget it: I wish I could. The wickedness of it! Oh, to give away my own child only to run after that villain!"
"My dear lady, is it well to allow one single episode to ruin your life? Consider your duty to your second husband. You should bring him happiness, not anxiety. Consider your splendid fortune. If the papers are true, you are worth many millions."
"The papers are quite true."
"You yourself are still comparatively young – not more than five and forty, I should say. Time has dealt tenderly with you. When I knew you, in Birmingham, you were a girl still, with a delicate, beautiful face. How could your husband desert you? Your face is still delicate and still beautiful. You become the silks and satins as you then became your cottons. Resign yourself to twenty years more of happiness and luxury. As for that weakness of yours, it will vanish if you avoid excitement and agitation. If not – what did your American adviser warn you?"
She rose reluctantly. "I cannot forget," she said. "I must go on remembering. But the dream was true. It was sent, doctor; it was sent. And the first step, I am sure and certain, was to lead me here."
After a solitary dinner, Sir Robert sat by the fire in his dining-room. A novel lay on a chair beside him. Like many scientific men, he was a great reader of novels. For the moment, he was simply looking into the fire while his thoughts wandered this way and that. He had seen about twenty patients in the course of the day, and made, in consequence, forty guineas. He was perfectly satisfied with the condition of his practice; he was under no anxiety about his reputation: his mind was quite at ease concerning himself from every point of view. He was thinking of this and of that – things indifferent – when suddenly he saw before him, by the light of the four candles on the table, the ghost of a date. The figures, in fact, stood out, luminous, against the dark mahogany of his massive sideboard. "December 2, 1872." He rubbed his eyes; the figures disappeared; he lay back; the figures came again.
"It's a trick of memory," he said. "What have I done to-day that could suggest this date?" The only important event of the day was the visit of his old patient, and the reminder about a certain adoption in which he had taken a part. Was the date connected with that event?
He got up and went into his consulting-room. There, on a shelf among many companions, he found his note-book of 1874. He remembered. The time was winter; it was early in the year. He turned over the pages; he came to his notes. He read these words: "Child must have light