The Vicissitudes of Evangeline. Glyn Elinor
seemed to have forgotten his vehemence of the night before. He asked all sorts of questions, and showed a sentiment and a delicacy I should not have expected from his hard face. I was quite sorry when the gong sounded for luncheon and we went in.
I have no settled plan in my head – I seem to be drifting, – tasting for the first time some power over another human being. It gave me delicious thrills to see his eagerness when contrasted with the dry refusal of my hand only the day before.
At lunch I addressed myself to Mr. Barton; he was too flattered at my attention, and continued to chatter garrulously.
The rain came on, and poured, and beat against the window-panes with a sudden angry thud. No chance of further walks abroad. I escaped upstairs while the butler was speaking to Mr. Carruthers, and began helping Véronique to pack. Chaos and desolation it all seemed in my cosy rooms.
While I was on my knees in front of a great wooden box, hopelessly trying to stow away books, a crisp tap came to the door, and without more ado my host – yes, he is that now – entered the room.
“Good Lord! what is all this,” he exclaimed, “what are you doing?”
“Packing,” I said, not getting up.
He made an impatient gesture.
“Nonsense!” he said, “there is no need to pack. I tell you I will not let you go. I am going to marry you and keep you here always.”
I sat down on the floor and began to laugh.
“You think so, do you?”
“Yes.”
“You can’t force me to marry you, you know – can you? I want to see the world, I don’t want any tiresome man bothering after me. If I ever do marry it will be because – oh, because – ” and I stopped, and began fiddling with the cover of a book.
“What?”
“Mrs. Carruthers said it was so foolish – but I believe I should prefer to marry some one I liked. Oh! I know you think that silly,” and I stopped him as he was about to speak, “but of course, as it does not last any way, it might be good for a little to begin like that, don’t you think so?”
He looked round the room, and on through the wide open double doors into my dainty bedroom where Véronique was still packing.
“You are very cosy here, it is absurd of you to leave it,” he said.
I got up off the floor and went to the window and back. I don’t know why I felt moved, a sudden sense of the cosiness came over me. The world looked wet and bleak outside.
“Why do you say you want me to marry you, Mr. Carruthers?” I said. “You are joking, of course.”
“I am not joking. I am perfectly serious. I am ready to carry out my aunt’s wishes. It can be no new idea to you, and you must have worldly sense enough to realize it would be the best possible solution of your future. I can show you the world, you know.”
He appeared to be extraordinarily good-looking as he stood there, his face to the dying light. Supposing I took him at his word, after all.
“But what has suddenly changed your ideas since yesterday? You told me you had come down to make it clear to me that you could not possibly obey her orders.”
“That was yesterday,” he said. “I had not really seen you; to-day I think differently.”
“It is just because you are sorry for me; I suppose I seem so lonely,” I whispered demurely.
“It is perfectly impossible – what you propose to do – to go and live by yourself at a London hotel – the idea drives me mad!”
“It will be delightful! no one to order me about from morning to night!”
“Listen,” he said, and he flung himself into an armchair. “You can marry me, and I will take you to Paris, or where you want, and I won’t order you about, – only I shall keep the other beasts of men from looking at you.”
But I told him at once I thought that would be very dull. “I have never had the chance of any one looking at me,” I said, “and I want to feel what it is like. Mrs. Carruthers always assured me I was very pretty, you know, only she said that I was certain to come to a bad end, because of my type, unless I got married at once, and then if my head was screwed on the right way it would not matter; but I don’t agree with her.”
He walked up and down the room impatiently.
“That is just it,” he said.” I would rather be the first – I would rather you began by me. I am strong enough to ward off the rest.”
“What does ’beginning by you’ mean?” I asked with great candour. “Old Lord Bentworth said I should begin by him, when he was here to shoot pheasants last autumn; he said it could not matter, he was so old; but I didn’t – ”
Mr. Carruthers bounded up from his chair.
“You didn’t what! Good Lord, what did he want you to do!” he asked aghast.
“Well,” I said, and I looked down for a moment, I felt stupidly shy, “he wanted me to kiss him.”
Mr. Carruthers appeared almost relieved, it was strange!
“The old wretch! Nice company my aunt seems to have kept!” he exclaimed. “Could she not take better care of you than that – to let you be insulted by her guests.”
“I don’t think Lord Bentworth meant to insult me. He only said he had never seen such a red, curly mouth as mine, and as I was bound to go to the devil some day with that, and such hair, I might begin by kissing him – he explained it all.”
“And were you not very angry?” his voice wrathful.
“No – not very, I could not be, I was shaking so with laughter. If you could have seen the silly old thing, like a wizened monkey, with dyed hair and an eyeglass, it was too comic! – I only told you because you said the sentence ‘begin by you,’ and I wanted to know if it was the same thing.”
Mr. Carruthers’ eyes had such a strange expression, puzzle and amusement, and something else. He came over close to me.
“Because,” I went on, “if so, I believe if that is always the beginning – I don’t want any beginnings – I haven’t the slightest desire to kiss any one – I should simply hate it.”
Mr. Carruthers laughed. “Oh! you are only a baby child after all!” he said.
This annoyed me. I got up with great dignity. “Tea will be ready in the white drawing-room,” I said stiffly, and walked towards my bedroom door.
He came after me.
“Send your maid away, and let us have it up here,” he said. “I like this room.”
But I was not to be appeased thus easily, and deliberately called Véronique and gave her fresh directions.
“Poor old Mr. Barton will be feeling so lonely,” I said, as I went out into the passage. “I am going to see that he has a nice tea,” and I looked back at Mr. Carruthers over my shoulder. Of course he followed me and we went together down the stairs.
In the hall a footman with a telegram met us. Mr. Carruthers tore it open impatiently. Then he looked quite annoyed.
“I hope you won’t mind,” he said, “but a friend of mine, Lord Robert Vavasour is arriving this afternoon – he is a – er – great judge of pictures. I forgot I asked him to come down and look at them, it clean went out of my head.”
I told him he was host; and why should I object to what guests he had.
“Besides, I am going myself to-morrow,” I said, “if Véronique can get the packing done.”
“Nonsense – how can I make you understand that I do not mean to let you go at all.”
I did not answer – only looked at him defiantly.
Mr. Barton was waiting patiently for us in the white drawing-room, and