Ray Bradbury Stories Volume 2. Ray Bradbury
plodding grammar. Sometimes he stopped and stood poised with one leg raised and one word stopped in his mouth, to be turned on his tongue and examined. Then the shoe went down, the noun slid forth and the verb and object in good time.
Until at last, circling, I found myself in a chair, stunned, for I saw:
Herr Doktor Von Seyfertitz stretched on his couch, his long spider fingers laced on his chest.
‘It has been no easy thing to come forth on land,’ he sibilated. ‘Some days I was the jellyfish, frozen. Others, the shore-strewn octopi, at least with tentacles, or the crayfish sucked back into my skull. But I have built my spine, year on year, and now I walk among the land men and survive.’
He paused to take a trembling breath, then continued:
‘I moved in stages from the depths to a houseboat, to a wharf bungalow, to a shore-tent and then back to a canal in a city and at last to New York, an island surrounded by water, eh? But where, where, in all this, I wondered, would a submarine commander find his place, his work, his mad love and activity?
‘It was one afternoon in a building with the world’s longest elevator that it struck me like a hand grenade in the ganglion. Going down, down, down, other people crushed around me, and the numbers descending and the floors whizzing by the glass windows, rushing by flicker-flash, flicker-flash, conscious, subconscious, id, ego-id, life, death, lust, kill, lust, dark, light, plummeting, falling, ninety, eighty, fifty, lower depths, high exhilaration, id, ego, id, until this shout blazed from my raw throat in a great all-accepting, panic-manic shriek:
‘“Dive! Dive!”’
‘I remember,’ I said.
‘“Dive!” I screamed so loudly that my fellow passengers, in shock, peed merrily. Among stunned faces, I stepped out of the lift to find one-sixteenth of an inch of pee on the floor. “Have a nice day!” I said, jubilant with self-discovery, then ran to self-employment, to hang a shingle and next my periscope, carried from the mutilated, divested, castrated unterderseaboat all these years. Too stupid to see in it my psychological future and my final downfall, my beautiful artifact, the brass genitalia of psychotic research, the Von Seyfertitz Mark Nine Periscope!’
‘That’s quite a story,’ I said.
‘Damn right,’ snorted the alienist, eyes shut. ‘And more than half of it true. Did you listen? What have you learned?’
‘That more submarine captains should become psychiatrists.’
‘So? I have often wondered: did Nemo really die when his submarine was destroyed? Or did he run off to become my great-grandfather and were his psychological bacteria passed along until I came into the world, thinking to command the ghostlike mechanisms that haunt the under-tides, to wind up with the fifty-minute vaudeville routine in this sad, psychotic city?’
I got up and touched the fabulous brass symbol that hung like a scientific stalactite in mid-ceiling.
‘May I look?’
‘I wouldn’t if I were you.’ He only half heard me, lying in the midst of his depression as in a dark cloud.
‘It’s only a periscope—’
‘But a good cigar is a smoke.’
I remembered Sigmund Freud’s quote about cigars, laughed, and touched the periscope again.
‘Don’t!’ he said.
‘Well, you don’t actually use this for anything, do you? It’s just a remembrance of your past, from your last sub, yes?’
‘You think that?’ He sighed. ‘Look!’
I hesitated, then pasted one eye to the viewer, shut the other, and cried:
‘Oh, Jesus!’
‘I warned you!’ said Von Seyfertitz.
For they were there.
Enough nightmares to paper a thousand cinema screens. Enough phantoms to haunt ten thousand castle walls. Enough panics to shake forty cities into ruin.
My God, I thought, he could sell the film rights to this worldwide!
The first psychological kaleidoscope in history.
And in the instant another thought came: how much of that stuff in there is me? Or Von Seyfertitz? Or both? Are these strange shapes my maundering daymares, sneezed out in the past weeks? When I talked, eyes shut, did my mouth spray invisible founts of small beasts which, caught in the periscope chambers, grew outsize? Like the microscopic photos of those germs that hide in eyebrows and pores, magnified a million times to become elephants on Scientific American covers? Are these images from other lost souls trapped on that couch and caught in the submarine device, or leftovers from my eyelashes and psyche?
‘It’s worth millions!’ I cried. ‘Do you know what this is!?’
‘Collected spiders, Gila monsters, trips to the Moon without gossamer wings, iguanas, toads out of bad sisters’ mouths, diamonds out of good fairies’ ears, crippled shadow dancers from Bali, cut-string puppets from Geppetto’s attic, little-boy statues that pee white wine, sexual trapeze performers’ allez-oop, obscene finger-pantomimes, evil clown faces, gargoyles that talk when it rains and whisper when the wind rises, basement bins full of poisoned honey, dragonflies that sew up every fourteen-year-old’s orifices to keep them neat until they rip the sutures, aged eighteen. Towers with mad witches, garrets with mummies for lumber—’
He ran out of steam.
‘You get the general drift.’
‘Nuts,’ I said. ‘You’re bored. I could get you a five-million-dollar deal with Amalgamated Fruitcakes Inc. and the Sigmund F. Dreamboats, split three ways!’
‘You don’t understand,’ said Von Seyfertitz. ‘I am keeping myself busy, busy, so I won’t remember all the people I torpedoed, sank, drowned mid-Atlantic in 1944. I am not in the Amalgamated Fruitcake Cinema business. I only wish to keep myself occupied by paring fingernails, cleaning earwax, and erasing inkblots from odd beanbags like you. If I stop, I will fly apart. That periscope contains all and everything I have seen and known in the past forty years of observing pecans, cashews, and almonds. By staring at them I lose my own terrible life lost in the tides. If you won my periscope in some shoddy fly-by-night Hollywood strip poker, I would sink three times in my waterbed, never to be seen again. Have I shown you my waterbed? Three times as large as any pool. I do eighty laps asleep each night. Sometimes forty when I catnap noons. To answer your millionfold offer, no.’
And suddenly he shivered all over. His hands clutched at his heart.
‘My God!’ he shouted.
Too late, he was realizing he had let me step into his mind and life. Now he was on his feet, between me and the periscope, staring at it and me, as if we were both terrors.
‘You saw nothing in that! Nothing at all!’
‘I did!’
‘You lie! How could you be such a liar? Do you know what would happen if this got out, if you ran around making accusations—?
‘My God,’ he raved on, ‘if the world knew, if someone said—’ His words gummed shut in his mouth as if he were tasting the truth of what he said, as if he saw me for the first time and I was a gun fired full in his face. ‘I would be … laughed out of the city. Such a goddamn ridiculous … hey, wait a minute. You!’
It was as if he had slipped a devil mask over his face. His eyes grew wide. His mouth gaped.
I examined his face and saw murder. I sidled toward the door.
‘You wouldn’t say anything to anyone?’ he said.
‘No.’
‘How come you suddenly know everything about me?’
‘You told