When We Were Sisters: An unputdownable book club read about that bonds that can bind or break a family. Emilie Richards
and perched on the bed beside her. “Since when have I listened to you? I’m just sorry I couldn’t get here sooner.”
She sniffed, then she held out her arms for a hug. “How did you get here at all? Where were you?”
I hugged her gingerly, remembering the shoulder. “Arizona. Out in the middle of God knows where on a ranch. You saved me from having to get on a horse. You’re my hero.”
“You used to ride. You could have been a rodeo queen.”
“It’s been a long time since I made friends with a horse.”
Robin’s hair is a rich chocolaty brown, longish and straight, with bangs brushing her forehead. I touched a strand, swiping it off her cheek. I was thirteen when Robin and I became sisters, and I thought right away that her heart-shaped face needed bangs. She’s worn them ever since, and they highlight eyes as blue as her namesake’s eggs. Today she was pale, but normally she has the clear, rosy complexion of a milkmaid. The first word people use when they describe her is wholesome.
“I’m kind of surprised to find you here,” I said. “Donny checked this morning, but I thought maybe they sent you home after lunch.”
“The hospital has a special concussion program.” She made a face. “I have my own nurse navigator. She wants me to stay another night.”
“Why?”
“Just a precaution. I can’t seem to remember everything that happened when...” Her eyes filled.
“Thank God.”
“My thought, too.”
“So you’ll get out tomorrow?”
“Unless something else turns up.” The tears pooled, and she sniffed. “But I wanted to get out today. I want to be at Talya’s funeral.”
“When is it?”
“In an hour and a half. They’ll do it at the graveside.” Finally the tears spilled onto her cheeks, and she dabbed at them with her fingertips. “Kris said he would go and represent both of us, but just now when I called his office he was still in a meeting. He won’t make it in time.”
I swallowed everything I wanted to say. That took a while.
“He was here most of yesterday morning,” Robin said as I gulped. “But we didn’t talk much. I was in and out for tests. I’m not sure he realizes...”
I had to change the subject. “How’s the other woman... Margaret?”
“Holding her own. They think she’ll pull through.”
“That’s good.”
“It should have been me.”
I stared at her a long moment before I spoke. “Please don’t ever say something like that again, okay? You think you deserved to die more than she did?”
Words spilled out the way tears had a moment before. “I was the one sitting in the passenger seat on the way to the restaurant. When we were ready to leave Talya said I should sit there again, that she was happy in the backseat, but all through dinner I’d been feeling left out. I didn’t want to sit up front and listen to her and Gretchen talking over me. I wanted to sit in the back with Margaret, who was busy texting. I wanted to feel sorry for myself, like a sullen seventh grader.”
“And you feel guilty?”
“It should have been me in that seat. I should have been sitting next to Gretchen. Or maybe if I hadn’t debated seat arrangements with Talya, maybe those few seconds would have made all the difference. Maybe Gretchen wouldn’t have caught the red light on the way out of the parking lot, and we would have been well beyond the spot where that car ran the stop sign.”
“You know how self-defeating that kind of thinking is, don’t you? You didn’t look into the future and trade seats with Talya so you could stay safe. Reality is random. It was chance. And if it wasn’t, then God decided who would live and who wouldn’t.”
“You don’t believe that and neither do I.”
“Not the part about God, no. The part about random? Absolutely.”
Robin didn’t argue, but I could tell she wasn’t buying it. “I can’t even be at the funeral to say goodbye.”
I make decisions quickly. I’ve always had to. “Do you feel well enough to go?”
“I feel as well as I’m going to for a while.”
“Can you get up and wash your face? Comb your hair?”
“I had a shower earlier. I was fine.”
“Then do both. I have a dark skirt and blouse that will probably fit well enough in my suitcase. Or has Kris brought clothes for you to wear home?”
She shook her head, and the movement made her wince. For a moment I reconsidered. Maybe she really did need to stay here another night, more tests, more observation. Then I remembered the tears.
Robin so rarely cries.
“Donny’s here. He’ll go down and get my clothes for you. Meantime I’ll talk to the— What did you call her...?”
“Navigator. Nurse navigator.”
“That’s the one. If I can find her I’ll tell her we’re navigating you right out the door, and she can set up an appointment or whatever she’s supposed to do. But she’ll have to do it without you lying here.”
She bit her lip, considering. “Okay.”
That’s when I knew Robin really needed to go to the funeral. Because defying authority isn’t part of her emotional makeup. Or possibly whatever defiance she was born with was bled out of her one drop at a time by her sadistic grandmother. But this time? This time she was ready to do exactly what she needed to.
“Wash, brush. I’ll be back. Do you know where the cemetery is?”
“I think so.”
“I’ll have Donny find that out, too. We have a car and a driver. We’ll get you there in time.”
She was already swinging her legs over the side of the bed. “The hospital won’t be happy. They’ll try to stop me.”
I stood and leaned down to kiss her hair. “You’re kidding, right? I’ll make sure they’re thrilled beyond belief. You wait and see.”
Robin
Talya loved autumn, the changing colors, the smell of wood smoke and pumpkins piled high at farmer’s markets. So many October afternoons we sat in my garden sipping tea or home-brewed lattes, and admired borders of nodding sunflowers and the heavy perfume of sweet autumn clematis. I had a trunk of garden hats, and Talya always picked through them to find just the right one to match whatever she was wearing. Whenever I saw colorful or whimsical hats I bought them, just to delight her.
I loved Talya. We were just neighbors until she became pregnant with Channa and a month later I became pregnant with Nik. We used to joke there must have been something in the water at Meadow Branch, and our pregnancies brought us together. We shared morning sickness, traded maternity clothes, took bets on who would deliver first, since Nik was a big baby and showed signs of arriving early.
As our children grew so did our friendship, until recently when changes swept her in other directions. Now death had removed her from my life forever.
Cecilia reached over and covered my hand as the Town Car driver came around to open my door. Her long, perfectly shaped nails were painted the palest aqua. My nails were at best clean, my hand trembling.
“Channa will need you, Robin. Now and when she grows older. You’ll be able to tell her who her mother really was, what kind