Blood Royal. Vanora Bennett
jewels gathered together too. Catherine counted as an adult now; her mother had had new dresses sewn for her. She was allowed to attend; to fan herself behind her feathers; to try her hand at worldly whispering with dance partners.
The first person she spoke to was her cousin, Charles, the younger Duke of Orleans; a fair-haired, weak-mouthed, charming young man with a gift for poetry. ‘You look beautiful … very elegant … but thin,’ he said solicitously as they left the dance floor together. He looked much older than he had before the summer’s fighting, too, she thought; but she was wiser now, so she kept her peace.
‘You must have been worried for months,’ he went on. He fixed kindly eyes on her. He was trying to reassure her, she saw. He said: ‘The English marriage will never happen, you know.’
‘I do know,’ she replied wearily, and then she suddenly felt so soiled, so humiliated by remembering her moments of past excitement at the prospect of that marriage, and everything that went with the memory of it – the other, forbidden memories, of the beauty of Owain’s face swimming down from above, and the heat of his skin on hers, and the touch of mouths and tongues – that she blushed a fierce, hot red, and burst into tears.
Charles of Orleans patted worriedly at her, dreadfully embarrassed, turning her towards a shadowy corner of the hall so no one could see her loss of control, not knowing what else to do. She took a corner of her skirts and dried her own eyes. Then she managed a watery smile, and the determinedly brave words that were what her cousin wanted to hear.
‘I never wanted it anyway,’ she said.
The Book of Deeds of
Arms and Chivalry
It was raining: a thin, hard drizzle that drilled into your skin and hurt your eyes. Owain, wet to the bones, was blinking it away. His legs, exhausted from the long day of riding, were still mechanically clamped to his horse’s sides; but the English advance had slowed to a painful walk and he didn’t think he could have stirred the horse, or himself, to do more, even if he’d heard the trumpets order a charge. His body was so tired he was in danger of letting the desolation of this autumn evening enter his heart. The other horsemen riding uncomplainingly beside and behind and ahead of him were dark shadows, slumped into their saddles, as overwhelmed as he was by the shadowy flatness all around and the impossibility of their mission. There was no talk, just endurance. There was nowhere to pitch camp. There had been French fires burning across the river at the Blanchetache ford. The plan to cross there had had to be dropped. His aching hands were slipping on his reins.
From somewhere up ahead, in a gap in the wind, he heard, with dread, a burst of music. The horns. It took him a moment to understand that they weren’t signalling an advance. There were drum-beats too; and a thin wail of fifes. With relief, and astonishment, he thought: it’s music. He stretched in the saddle, peered through the gathering dark; willed his eyes and ears to make sense of it. But even before he did he found his horse stepping forward with new vigour in its stride, as hundreds of others all around speeded up their pace too, and squared their shoulders. He heard marching songs; and a drift of suddenly cheerful deep voices, and the quicker, louder tempo of the archers’ heavy footsteps, coming back to the riders over the insistent drum-beats. The wet no longer seemed so daunting. Owain even found himself whistling. The music would be an order from the King himself, he knew, and he found himself lost in admiration, as he’d so often been during the three months of this campaign, at the King’s instinct for drooping spirits; the deft ways he knew to raise morale.
When Owain recognised the leader of the group of horsemen he now made out trotting back down the English line, against the flow of soldiery, his heart filled with a joy as intense as that of a child seeing its father. Henry, the King, his master, was coming, with his body as jaunty in the saddle as if he hadn’t been riding for ten hours. His face was glistening with water under his raised visor, but he had fire still in his eyes and a face full of smiling understanding as he stopped here and there to clap one soldier on the back or shout a word of encouragement to another.
The King reined in his shining black palfrey as Owain, tall and proud in the saddle, trotted past, feeling the energy of those big, intelligent royal eyes like heat. ‘Tudor!’ he heard; and he bobbed his head manfully, trying to restrain the beaming smile he wanted to give at being singled out. ‘Good man; we’ll be pitching camp just up ahead,’ the King said briskly. His voice was deep and confident. ‘There’s a wood. You’ll see. Get a dozen of your men into it for kindling. The rest can do tents for everyone. We need good big fires. Get everyone dry. Cheer us all up.’
‘Sir!’ Owain said, and, as the horsemen spurred on back down the line, he let the smile out onto his face, and set himself to imagining the big blaze of a fire he was going to organise.
He’d been called back from the studies the King had permitted him to begin at Oxford, to join the King’s French campaign, setting off from Southampton in the summer in the fleet of ships that had assembled to fight at an undisclosed location across the Channel. He hadn’t wanted to come; hadn’t wanted to fight; above all, hadn’t wanted to fight Catherine’s father’s forces. But there was no disobeying orders. When John of Bedford had said his brother the King wanted Owain on hand, in case the need arose during the campaign for negotiations with the French King (since his previous trip to Paris, Owain was deemed to know the French court), he’d dared to ask, with a hint of sullenness: ‘But can I come back afterwards and continue my studies?’ Now, three months on, he could hardly remember the boy who could have felt aggrieved at commonsense Duke John’s mild answer: ‘It all depends on the King. Duty comes first. You know that.’ He did, now. He knew about combat: the fear, the euphoria, and the need to obey orders. He’d been put to fight in the siege of Harfleur; he’d thought it would be a life of sneers at the Welshman, and he’d hate it. But he’d quickly found he was considered as much a part of the force as any real Englishman as long as he did his best; and by the time the dignitaries of Harfleur came out through the shattered walls to surrender to the King he’d been cheering as loud and as joyfully as any of Henry’s English knights. These days, he never even thought about following orders, or about whether he felt it morally justified to make war in France. He’d been swept away by the logic of where he was and who he was with. He’d stopped caring about anything else. What drove him to ride until his limbs felt they might fall off his body was no longer obedience, or thought, or principle. He just wanted Henry’s eyes approvingly on his. He craved that lopsided, energetic grin; the clap on the back. Like every other soldier in the force, he took orders now out of sheer love.
The French army was waiting for them beyond the woods where they camped. In the last of the luminous grey light, Owain could see the rooftops and drifting smoke of the villages of Rousseauville and Azincourt. ‘They’re behind there,’ his subaltern said, careful to keep fear out of his voice. ‘And over there. And there.’
No one knew how they knew it; no one would say such a thing to his fellows; but it didn’t take long for the knowledge to spread that there were at least three times as many French soldiers over there as there were English over here. And horsemen; hundreds upon hundreds of powerful horsemen; while this little English force was mostly made up of yeomen archers in ordinary leather jerkins, who, apart from their bows, had only the most basic of equipment – axes at their girdles and pikes to force their way into the thickest fighting.
But as the darkness hemmed in the English troops, in the exposed, perilous fields and copses that God and the King had chosen for them, Owain and dozens of other English knights – and Owain Dwn, another Welshman of his own age, the sparkling-eyed grandson of Henry Dwn, a fighter who’d taken Henry of England’s peace – brought forth fire from great steaming bonfires. Owain leaned as close as he dared to