Tell Me Your Dreams. Sidney Sheldon
tell you what. I’ll start by paying you double whatever you’re getting now and—”
Toni said, “I appreciate it, but I … I can’t.”
Zimmerman sat back in his chair. “You’re not interested in show business?”
“I’m very interested.”
“Then what’s the problem?”
Toni hesitated, then said carefully, “I’d probably have to leave in the middle of the tour.”
“Because of your husband or—?”
“I’m not married.”
“I don’t understand. You said you’re interested in show business. This is the perfect showcase for you to—”
“I’m sorry. I can’t explain.”
If I did explain, he wouldn’t understand, Toni thought miserably. No one would. It’s the unholy curse I have to live with. Forever.
A few months after Toni started working at Global Computer Graphics, she learned about the Internet, the worldwide open door to meeting men.
She was having dinner at the Duke of Edinburgh with Kathy Healy, a friend who worked for a rival computer company. The restaurant was an authentic pub from England that had been torn down, packed in containers and shipped to California. Toni would go there for Cockney fish and chips, prime ribs with Yorkshire pudding, bangers and mash and English sherry trifle. One foot on the ground, she would say. I have to remember my roots.
Toni looked up at Kathy. “I want you to do me a favor.”
“Name it.”
“I want you to help me with the Internet, luv. Tell me how to use it.”
“Toni, the only computer I have access to is at work, and it’s against company policy to—”
“Sod company policy. You know how to use the Internet, don’t you?”
“Yes.”
Toni patted Kathy Healy’s hand and smiled. “Great.”
The following evening, Toni went to Kathy Healy’s office, and Kathy introduced Toni to the world of the Internet. After clicking on the Internet icon, Kathy entered her password and waited a moment to connect, then double clicked another icon and entered a chat room. Toni sat in amazement, watching rapid, typed conversations taking place among people all over the globe.
“I’ve got to have that!” Toni said. “I’ll get a computer for my flat. Would you be an angel and set me up on the Internet?”
“Sure. It’s easy. All you do is click your mouse into the URL field, the uniform resource locator, and—”
“Like the song says, ‘Don’t tell me, show me.’”
The next night, Toni was on the Internet, and from that time on, her life changed. She was no longer bored. The Internet became a magic carpet that flew her all over the world. When Toni got home from work, she would immediately turn on her computer and go online to explore various chat rooms that were available.
It was so simple. She accessed the Internet, pressed a key and a window opened on the screen, split into an upper portion and a lower portion. Toni typed in “Hello. Is anyone there?”
The lower portion of the screen flashed the words “Bob. I’m here. I’m waiting for you.”
She was ready to meet the world.
There was Hans in Holland:
“Tell me about yourself, Hans.”
“I’m a DJ in Amsterdam at a great club. I’m into hip-hop, rave, world beat. You name it.”
Toni typed in her reply. “Sounds great. I love to dance. I can go all night long. I live in a horrible little town that has nothing to offer except a few disco nights.”
“Sounds sad.”
“It bloody well is.”
“Why don’t you let me cheer you up? What are the chances of our meeting?”
“Ta ta.” She exited the chat room.
There was Paul, in South Africa:
“I’ve been waiting for you to check back in, Toni.”
“I’m here. I’m dying to know all about you, Paul.”
“I’m thirty-two. I’m a doctor at a hospital in Johannesburg. I—”
Toni angrily signed off. A doctor! Terrible memories came flooding through her. She closed her eyes a moment, her heart pounding. She took several deep breaths. No more tonight, she thought, shakily. She went to bed.
The following evening, Toni was back on the Internet. Online was Sean from Dublin:
“Toni … That’s a pretty name.”
“Thank you, Sean.”
“Have you ever been to Ireland?”
“No.”
“You’d love it. It’s the land of leprechauns. Tell me what you look like, Toni. I’ll bet you’re beautiful.”
“You’re right. I’m beautiful, I’m exciting and I’m single. What do you do, Sean?”
“I’m a bartender. I—”
Toni ended the chat session.
Every night was different. There was a polo player in Argentina, an automobile salesman in Japan, a department store clerk in Chicago, a television technician in New York. The Internet was a fascinating game, and Toni enjoyed it to the fullest. She could go as far as she wanted and yet know that she was safe because she was anonymous.
And then one night, in an online chat room, she met Jean Claude Parent.
“Bonsoir. I am happy to meet you, Toni.”
“Nice to meet you, Jean Claude. Where are you?”
“In Quebec City.”
“I’ve never been to Quebec. Would I like it?” Toni expected to see the word yes on the screen.
Instead, Jean Claude typed, “I do not know. It depends on what kind of person you are.”
Toni found his answer intriguing. “Really? What kind of person would I have to be to enjoy Quebec?”
“Quebec is like the early North American frontier. It is very French. Quebecois are independent. We do not like to take orders from anyone.”
Toni typed in, “Neither do I.”
“Then you would enjoy it. It is a beautiful city, surrounded by mountains and lovely lakes, a paradise for hunting and fishing.”
Looking at the typed words appearing on her screen, Toni could almost feel Jean Claude’s enthusiasm. “It sounds great. Tell me about yourself.”
“Moi? There is not much to tell. I am thirty-eight years old, unmarried. I just ended a relationship, and I would like to settle down with the right woman. Et vous? Are you married?”
Toni typed back, “No. I’m looking for someone, too. What do you do?”
“I own a little jewelry store. I hope you will come and visit it one day.”
“Is that an invitation?”
“Mais oui. Yes.”
Toni typed in, “It sounds interesting.” And she meant it. Maybe I’ll find a way to go there, Toni thought. Maybe he’s the person who can save me.
Toni communicated with Jean Claude Parent