Hand-Me-Down. Lee Nichols
Banana and he headed to his office at UCSB.
“You looked pretty last night,” he said.
“Nice that someone thought so,” I muttered into my coffee.
“Hmm?”
“Nothing.” I put my cup on the coffee table and held out my arms to show off my new red T-shirt and black mini. “And what do we think of today’s ensemble?”
“Not the book!” he said.
I grabbed my cup from the book I’d used as a coaster. It was Porn Is Film. Emily had placed it there, and we didn’t dare move it. She’d come on a surprise inspection last Tuesday and found it buried at the bottom of the bookcase. The echoes were still fading.
Dad inspected the cover for stains and declared us safe when he found none. He smiled at the book, from fondness for Emily. “Mom would be so proud. Little did she know when she named you after the Brontë sisters, one of you’d become an author.”
“Mom published stuff. So did you,” I said sulkily. “All professors get published.”
“In journals. Not like this.”
“Well, Charlotte helped.”
His smile wavered. “Your mom never would have expected her daughter to become a swimsuit model, though. I think she’d have supported it….” This was an old conflict with Dad.
“Dad, she’s still Charlotte. Fame, fortune, and public nudity haven’t done a single bad thing to her. Look what she’s made of herself.”
“Speaking of which…” he said, and I realized I’d been deftly maneuvered into this conversation.
“I like Banana.”
“Anne—”
“Yes, Anne,” I said. “The Brontë sister no one’s ever heard of. So lay off!”
“That doesn’t mean—”
“Dad.”
“I’m only saying—”
“Dad.”
“Okay, okay. I’m saying nothing.”
“And I’ve heard it all before.”
At the end of that summer, Emily and Jamie were married. Charlotte had a baby girl. And I got a job working for a dot-com. I was destined to make millions—in an artsy-businessy way, of course.
I heard Ian moved to New York.
CHAPTER 04
The third time Ian Dunne came into my life was eight years later.
I was twenty-nine, with a steady job and a steady boyfriend and a steady life. And I still managed to invite my sister’s ex-boyfriend to an inappropriate party. There’s a word for that: Fate.
Or maybe it’s: Stupid.
It started when Emily and I were having lunch at the Sojourner, a natural foods restaurant downtown. We were arguing over a gift for Charlotte’s birthday. Emily and I always joined forces to buy presents for Charlotte. Even though Charlotte insisted she loved everything we got her, together we could afford something unembarrassing.
“You know what she gave me last year?” I asked.
“A mahogany tilt-top occasional table.”
I nodded. “Used furniture.”
“It’s an antique. Must’ve cost thousands. And it’s in perfect condition—it looks brand-new.”
“But it isn’t.”
“I’ll take it, if you don’t want it,” Emily said. Like she needed secondhand used furniture. Between her book and her articles, her lectures and TV appearances, she was almost as stinking rich as Charlotte. Well, maybe a tenth as rich, but that was still pretty stinking if you were only an office manager, like me.
“I didn’t say I didn’t want it,” I said. “Just that it wasn’t new.”
Emily shook her head. “Well, neither is the gift I want to get her, so you’re even.”
The waitress came and I ordered a Gorilla Fizz, which I’d been ordering at the Sojourner since I was a kid, and a Popeye Salad, which I’d been ordering since I had trouble zipping my Levi’s last week. Emily quizzed the waitress about what exactly was in the vegetable timbale, then ordered the pumpkin ravioli with a totally different sauce than was on the menu. Then called the waitress back and changed to the stew. When she finished, she turned to me. “Charlotte and I found a new antiques place in El Paseo a couple weeks ago.”
“Antiques,” I said, disgusted, “are the world’s biggest scam. First something is new. Pristine. Unsullied. Then it’s gently used. Crusty. Questionable. Then used. Old. Nasty. And finally, if nobody’s thrown it away, it becomes antique. Repulsive, rancid, swirling with layers of greasy body oil. And more expensive than when it was new.”
“It amazes me you can eat in a restaurant,” Emily said. “You know other people have used that fork.”
I paused midbite, trying not to think about it. Hundreds of mouths sliding wet tongues over the prongs. It was deeply off-putting—but fortunately, my fondness for all things new and unused was (mostly) limited to what I owned. Besides, I liked to eat. I put the forkful of salad in my mouth and smiled triumphantly at Emily. “See! Not crazy.”
“Good,” she said. “Prove it by picking up Charlotte’s gift at the antiques store.”
“What is it?” I asked.
“A lacquer box. She loved it when she saw it in the window.”
“Why can’t you get it?”
“Because I have a real job, Anne.” Emily thought I wasn’t living up to my potential, answering phones at a real estate company. She didn’t understand that that was my potential.
“Oh, yeah,” I said. “Academia. Nothing more real than that.”
“At least I enjoy what I’m doing,” she said.
“So do I. Putting people in real homes, with roofs and doors—things they can use. Not theories about how porn queens articulate their genitalia.” Emily had actually said that once, articulate her genitalia, on Crossfire or Politically Incorrect or somewhere. She hated to be teased about it. “Don’t tell me how important your work is compared to mine.”
“I didn’t say it was important. I said I enjoyed it.” She looked down at her plate. “At least I used to.”
I immediately felt awful for snapping at her. She’d been having a terrible time with her second book, struggling with it for years. “Problems with the book again?”
“No, it’s—well, it’s finished. The first draft.”
“But…” I prompted.
“But nothing.”
“What does Jamie think?”
“He says he likes it.” She dipped a hunk of bread in her stew. “My agent wants to shop it elsewhere.”
“You mean—elsewhere?”
“She says I should get a big-name publisher.”
“Instead of Jamie?”
She nodded.
It would kill Jamie. Emily was his lead author as well as his wife. The reason he’d been able to attract other good writers was because of Porn Is Film. And Emily relied on him more than she knew, and not only because he stayed in Santa Barbara with their son, Zach, while she commuted three days a week to UCLA.
“You can’t do that,” I said.
“No,” she said. “I