Red Shadows. Gaby Crumb
body because I knew I lost control and I would just reasoning with my dick. And Ash deserved more, deserved better.
I thought again that it was wrong we were together. Again in the shower, naked again, again with that desire that can not make me think lucidly.
«Stop thinking, Sean. You'll have time tomorrow to go back into paranoia. Tonight we do not need it. So shut up.»
«Do you also read my mind now?»
«Let's finish this shower. So then we can go to sleep.»
To sleep? I thought he had come home with me because he wanted to have sex. Did he wanted to sleep? Crist, I would never be able to keep my hands to myself. It was probably better than I took him home right away. I would had to think about what the fuck I was doing before we got in the car. Now everything would become a big mess, and ... and his mouth captured mine.
Shit, it really seemed that he was the adult between the two of us.
«I hear the hamster in your head that runs like a madman in the wheel. Make him rest Sean.»
«You're treating me like a moron, Ash,» I said huffily.
«Yes, as long as you continue to be a moron. Do you think that your body does not tell me what you want even if you do not speak? That way you’re looking at me is not clear enough to tell me that you want me?»
«Ash ..» I moaned eager and frustrated.
«Enough. I do not want to spend what's left of my birthday to discuss with you about your paranoia and the fact that you do not want to tell me that you love me even if it is clear that it is so.»
I picked up a bit of my manhood and I grabbed him by the hips turning him and pushing him against the wall. I grabbed the bubble bath and let it slip a few drops down his back.
«Since when you've become so wise?» I asked, beginning to touch him.
My hands slipped slowly on his wet skin and my sex awoke completely. I wanted to hug him, squeeze him and feel his body against mine. I needed him so much, I was almost breathless and my hands did not seem quite full of him. I wanted to squeeze his cock and feel him enjoy it for me, feel that he arced from my touch, that he wanted more. I wanted to hear he wanted me with the same intensity with which I wanted him. I wanted to be able to control myself, to regain my mental faculties, but that damn boy now annulled all.
I slipped with my hands on his hips. He spoke, his voice hoarse and low, but I was not listening anymore. I went over and unable to resist I leaned to him and felt his ass against my cock, his back against my chest and I could not control my hands as if they were guided by their own will, slipping from his hips to his belly, going on his stomach, on his abs then dropped down to his hard sex. I began to kiss his neck, tasting his skin, playing with the lobe of his ear.
«You make me lose control, Ash, you make me want to have you all to myself, just for me. You make me go crazy. I should control myself, reflect and know that it is not a good idea, but when you're with me I do not give a shit about anything. I do not know when I started to look at you, wanting you, but now I seem I do it forever. If we go along, if we end up in bed, if I enter into you I will not be able to let you go and it is unfair. I know it and you know it too, but do not care because the only thing I want is you. I should stop, you should stop ...»
Ash turned. Narrowed eyes, hatched lips. It was a pretty damn exciting vision and my dick is even more hardened. He put his arms around my neck, pulling me toward him as our erections touched and sending sparks up the spine.
«I will not stop you. Stop fighting Sean, love me and that's it.»
«You're only eighteen years old and ...»
«Enough of this story. I want you, I know who you are, I know what you hide in your eyes, and in your heart. I know, always know since we lost our parents. And I know you want me. We think about consequences if there are any, now I want you and that’s all.»
I went crazy by the desire to have him, yet I was still hesitant. It was a struggle between heart and reason, and both were strong and wanted to win. When Ash kissed me, I left him decide for both. I returned his kiss, gently stroking his lips with my tongue, while the hot water enveloped us relaxing our minds, but further energizing our bodies. Reluctantly, I moved away from him, who looked confused.
«We finish this shower so I can take you to bed.»
He smiled and we finished quickly to wash. Once out of the shower I wrapped Ash in a soft towel, took one for me and wrapped it on my hips. We were going in the bedroom when my phone began to ring. I paused a moment and then took Ash's hand going towards the bedroom.
«Do you not answer?»
«No, I need you now. Anyone can wait.»
Ash approached me taking off his towel and grabbing my to do the same. The phone stopped ringing to start soon after. I ignored him still preferring to concentrate on the curve of Ash’s ass on which I had placed my hands. He had a perfect hard ass and would soon be mine. But the phone did not stop ringing. Ash lifted his face, kissing under the chin and sliding his hands on my hips.
«It might be important, Sean. Answer it, I wait for you on bed.»
Saying that he turned away from me as light as a feather to go and lie on the bed. I watched him for a few seconds, then turned to go and retrieve the phone cursing whoever was calling.
«Hello?»
«Come on. Hurry, there are news.»
«What happened?»
«Not on the phone. I called everyone. Join us at the usual place.»
Shit, they would not let me even fuck in peace. But Connor's serious tone does not bode good. I rubbed my face with the palm of the hand and went back to the bedroom.
«Do not tell me. You have to go…» he told me soon as I finished the call.
«I'm sorry kiddo, it seems that we can not celebrate your birthday as it should.»
«Never mind, we put away for another day perhaps. Everything is alright?»
«I do not know yet. I'll take you home, ok?»
«I' prefer to expect you here.»
«I could be gone all night Ash.»
«I do not care. Go, do what you have and come back to me,» he said smiling.
«You're hunting for trouble to be with me, Ash.»
I returned the smile, happy that he wanted to wait for me.
«Are you saying we're together? Are you my boyfriend?» Ash asked defiantly.
«I'm saying it will be a mess,» I retorted.
Ash got out of bed and joined me while I grabbed my jeans and a clean jersey from the closet.
«Are you worried about it, Sean, I see it. And I do not think for both of us. What is going on?»
I finished dressing, took his face and I obliged to look at me straight in the eye.
«Do you wait for me here?»
«Do not get yourself killed.»
With one last kiss I let him go and I left the house after having recovered the gun.
The place was usually an old abandoned warehouse, where we found ourselves together whenever we had to decide something. When I entered they were all already there. I looked over and I saw Cameron approach me with a couple of beers in hand and he extended one to me.
«Has Connor ruined the evening to you too, huh?»
I clapped my beer against his, but I did not answer. We approached the others and waited until Connor spoke. Ryan spoke.
«It was reported that Montero has moved the date to delivery the goods. They will meet at dawn.