Black Mamba Boy. Nadifa Mohamed
from her hand like a string cut loose from its kite.
It was only the expanse of emptiness around it that made Hargeisa seem like a town but unlike the straw and skin collapsible desert homes they had passed, the houses in Hargeisa were forbidding white stone dwellings, as utilitarian as beehives. Large barred windows were decorated above with simple, geometric designs, the wealthier houses had courtyards with bougainvillea and purple hibiscus creeping up their walls. Everywhere you looked there were closed doors and empty streets, all the town’s dramas were played out by figures hidden behind high walls and drawn curtains.
Finally the door to his grandfather’s compound creaked open and a smiling girl said, ‘Aunty, is this Jama?’ but Jinnow pushed past her, still holding Jama solidly by the arm.
In the courtyard, women stood up to get a closer look at the boy.
‘Is this the orphan? Isn’t he a spit of his father!’, ‘Miskiin, may Allah have mercy on you!’ they called.
The girl bounced along in front of Jinnow, her big eye constantly peering back at Jama.
Jinnow reached her room, ‘Go now, Ayan,’ she said, shooing the girl away and pulled Jama in after her. A large nomad’s aqal filled the room, an igloo made of branches and hides, she caught Jama’s look of surprise and patted his cheek. ‘I’m a true bedu, could never get used to sleeping under stones, felt like a tomb, come lie down and rest, son,’ she said.
The inside of the aqal was alight with brightly coloured straw mats. Jama lay down obediently but couldn’t stop his eyes roving around. ‘Do you remember that you once stayed here with your mother? No, look how my mind is rotting, how can you remember, you couldn’t even sit up,’ Jinnow chattered.
Jama could remember something, the snug warmth, the light filtering through woven branches, the earthy smell, it was all imprinted in his mind from a past life. He watched Jinnow as she fussed around, tidying up her old lady paraphernalia. She had the same high cheekbones, slanted eyes and low toned, grainy way of speaking as Ambaro, and Jama’s heart sunk as he realised his mother would never be old like Jinnow.
After a restless sleep, Jama ventured into the courtyard; the women carried on with their chores, but he could hear them whispering about him. He ran towards a leafless tree growing next to the compound wall, he climbed its spindly branches, and sat in a fork high up in the tree. Leaning into the cusp Jama floated over the roof and tree tops, looking down like an unseen angel on the men in white walking aimlessly up and down the dusty street. The tree had beautiful brown skin, smooth and dotted with black beauty spots, like his mother’s had been, and he laid his head against the cool silky trunk. Jama rested his eyes but within moments felt tiny missiles hitting him, he looked down and saw Ayan and two little boys giggling. ‘Piss off! Piss off!’ Jama hissed. ‘Get out of here!’
The children laughed louder and shook the tree, making Jama sway and lose his grip on his seat. ‘Hey bastard, come down, come down from the tree and find your father,’ they sang, Ayan in the lead, with a cruel, gappy-toothed leer on her face.
Jama waved his leg at that smile, hoping to smash the rest of her teeth in. ‘Who are you calling a bastard? You little turds, I bet you know all about bastards with your slutty mothers!’ he shouted, drawing gasps from the women near him.
‘Hey Jinnow, come and get this boy of yours, such a vile mouth you would think he was a Midgaan not an Aji. No wonder he was thrown into the streets,’ said a long-faced woman.
Jinnow, startled and ashamed, charged over to Jama and dragged him down. ‘Don’t do that, Jama! Don’t drag down your mother’s name.’ She pointed towards her room and Jama slunk away.
Inside the aqal, Jama cried and cried, for his mother, for himself, for his lost father, for Shidane and Abdi and it released something knotted up and tight within his soul, he felt the storm leave his mind.
Jinnow spent her days tending her date palms, selling fruit in the market near the dry riverbed that bisected the town or weaving endless mats, while Jama appeared and disappeared throughout the day. With all the men away with the camels Jama spent time on the streets to avoid the harsh chatter of the compound women who treated him like a fly buzzing around the room, swatting him away when they wanted to talk dirty. Their faces a bright cruel yellow from beauty masks of powdered turmeric, they dragged each other into corners, hands cupped around mouths, and in loud whispers languidly assassinated reputations, they drew shoes in fights as quickly as cowboys drew pistols.
Clutching her brown, spindly fingers against the wall of the compound, Ayan would peer over and watch as Jama tripped down the road. Ayan was the daughter of one of the younger wives in the compound and lived in a smaller room away from Jinnow. Jama would throw stones at her every time she approached him, so now she just satisfied herself with staring at him from a distance, crossing and uncrossing her eyes, flapping her upturned eyelids at him. As a girl she was rarely allowed out, and Jama’s bad reputation within the compound and filthy mouth had slowly begun to win her admiration. She hoped to stare him into friendship but he had too long a memory for that and was still planning a revenge for the time she dared call him bastard. Jama slyly observed her daily routine of housework, childminding and standing around, one leg scratching the back of the other, and plotted her downfall. Ayan’s mother was a tall shrewish woman with a missing front tooth, a neglected third wife who beat her children down verbally and physically. In front of her mother, Ayan was a well-behaved, hard-working child but in private she was a gang-leader and vicious fighter. Her troupe of scraggly infants would gather behind her after lunchtime, and prowl around the compound, catching lizards by the tail, spying on older children and going through their belongings. If challenged, the younger children would take flight while Ayan fought the angry object of their snooping. Scratches and cuts formed patterns on her skin like the tattoos on a Maori warrior, her young face knocked into a jagged adult shape by the fists of her mother and cousins. Jama had no possessions to filch or secrets to hide but for Ayan he presented an enigma, he was a strange silent boy from a foreign land.
Jama would sometimes see Ayan in the evening as the women gathered around the paraffin lamp to tell stories. Tales about the horrors some women were made to suffer at the hands of men, about the secret lovers some women kept, or about Dhegdheer who killed young women and ate their breasts. Ayan would regularly be mocked as ‘dirty’ and ‘loose’ by the women and older children for being uncircumcised and her head would droop down in shame. Her stupid mistakes would be recounted; she had once tried to open a lock with her finger and instead got it stuck. ‘I thought that is how people open locks!’ Ayan wailed.
‘Served you right, that was Allah’s reward for your snooping,’ rejoiced her mother. Jama’s favourite stories were about his grandmother Ubah, who travelled on her own as far as the Ogaden desert to trade skins, incense, and other luxuries despite having a rich husband. ‘What a woman, Ubah was a queen and my best friend,’ Jinnow would sigh. All the storytellers claimed to have seen a shapeshifter, nomads who at night turned into animals and looked for human prey in town, disappearing before daybreak and the first call to prayer. Ayan’s eyes would form frightened wide circles in the orange light and Jama could see her trying to nestle next to her mother and getting pushed irritably away. Jama hoped that one of these shapeshifters would snatch Ayan away, and take her out into the pitch black night where shadows slipped in and out of alleys. Alleys where hyenas stalked alongside packs of wild dogs, hunting lone men together, ripping out the tendons from their fleeing ankles as they tried to run for their lives, their helpless screams piercing the cloistered night.
Jama’s life was no different to the goats tied up in the compound, staring blankly as they chewed on peelings. He was just a lump of dull clay that no-one wanted to mould or breathe life into, he was not sent to school, not sent out with the camels, only told ‘Fetch this’ and ‘Get out!’The wives made a show of exchanging glances and locking their rooms if he was nearby, they were all like Mrs Islaweyne in their pettiness. The only comfort he found was at night in Jinnow’s aqal, when Jama would allow her to tuck him in under the thin sheets and wait for her to start talking about his parents. With his eyes tightly closed Jama would listen to Jinnow describe how his father leapt out one night in the desert and with a flaming torch scared away hyenas