An Eagle in the Snow. Michael Morpurgo
that left just me and the stranger opposite – who, it turned out, was not such a stranger after all. He was looking at me from time to time as if he was about to ask me a question, then thought better of it. Finally, he leaned forward, speaking to me under his breath: “It was you I carried down, after the raid, wasn’t it, son? In Mulberry Road?”
I nodded.
“Thought so,” he said. “Mulberry Road kids, you and me both then. Never forget a face. I remember thinking, as I was carrying you down, that you reminded me of me – at your age, I mean. I had a busted arm once, when I was little. Not football – fell off a bike. Good to meet up again. Spitting image of me, you are.” He was smiling at me, and nodding. Then he went on: “Your dad, where is he, where’s he fighting? Where did the army send him?”
“Africa,” I told him. “In the desert. He looks after the tanks, makes them work, mends them when they break. Sand gets into everything, he says. Hot too, he says, millions of flies.”
“That’s where I should be,” the man said. “I was there once, in the army. South Africa, long time ago. S’what I should be doing now, fighting, like your dad. But they wouldn’t let me join up. Gammy leg.” He was patting his knee. “From the last war. Bit of shrapnel still in there somewhere. And anyway, I’m too old, they said. Forty-five? Too old? Stuff and nonsense. So I got to sit at home and do nothing. Civil Defence, Air-raid Warden, that’s all I’m good for now, going and blowing whistles, telling people to close their curtains in the blackout. I should be out there fighting. I told them – more than anyone I should be out there, doing my bit, like your dad. I ain’t too old. I can still run about a bit. I can stand and fight, can’t I?” His lips were quivering now. I could see he was struggling to control himself, and that frightened me a bit. “But they wouldn’t listen,” he went on. “Stay at home,” they said. “You did your bit the last time. You got the medals to prove it.” He looked away from me then, shaking his head. “Medals. They don’t mean nothing. If only they knew. If only they knew.”
I thought that was all he was going to say, but it wasn’t. “Well, anyway, I did what they said. Got no choice, had I? But what can you do, with all them bombs coming down, houses blowed to bits, schools, hospitals, and those people killed, hundreds of ’em. Kids your age, babies. We were pulling out dozens of them, and most of them already dead. What’s the use of that? You got to fight them. We should have had guns firing at them, knocking them out of the sky. We should have had planes up there shooting them down. Hundred of bombers, they sent over, set the whole city on fire, and all I could do was run around the streets blowing whistles and pulling people out …” He stopped then, too upset to go on.
I didn’t know what to say, so I said nothing, and looked out of the window. The train rattled on through the countryside, the telegraph poles whipping by. I counted a hundred of them, before I got bored with it. Raindrops were chasing each other down the windows. I was looking up at the clouds then, watching the smoke from the train rising up, becoming part of them – now part of a roaring lion cloud, then a map of Britain cloud, then more like a one-eyed giant’s face. It was a deep dark eye, a moving eye. It took me some moments to realise that the giant’s eye was an aeroplane. By the time I knew and understood that properly, I found I couldn’t make out the giant’s face in the cloud any more. It was just a cloud with an aeroplane flying out of it.
That was the moment I felt something stinging my eye. I knew at once it was grit from the open window. I could feel the sharpness of it. No amount of rubbing or blinking could seem to get it out, however hard I tried. It was stuck fast, somewhere deep in the corner of my eye. My finger couldn’t get it out, blinking couldn’t, nothing could. Everything I did was only making it worse, making it hurt more.
The stranger leaned forward then, took my hand and pulled it gently away. “That won’t help, son,” he said. “Let me have a go. I’ll get it out for you. Hold steady now, there’s a good lad. Head back.” He was grasping my shoulder, holding me firmly. Then he was trying to prise my eyelid open with his thumb. It was hard not to pull away, not to wince, not to blink. I could feel the corner of his handkerchief against my eyeball. I was blinking now. I couldn’t help myself. It took a while, but suddenly it was over. He was sitting back, smiling at me, showing me triumphantly the black speck of grit on his handkerchief.
“See? What goes in always comes out,” he said. “You’ll be fine now.” And I could tell from my blinking he was right. It was gone. I kept checking afterwards, blinking again and again to be quite sure.
That’s what I was still doing a little while later, as I was looking out of the window, which was how I saw the plane coming down out of the clouds. But it was much lower now than it had been before, and closer too. A fighter! And it was coming right towards us!
“Spitfire!” I cried, stabbing at the window with my finger. “Look! Look!” Ma was awake at once, all three of us now at the window.
“That ain’t no Spitfire, son,” said the stranger. “That’s a flaming Messerschmitt 109, that is. German fighter. And it’s diving, attacking. Away from the window! Now!”
He grabbed us both and pulled us down on to the floor of the carriage. There came a sudden roaring overhead, the sound of guns blazing, of shattering glass, of screaming, of the train whistling, gathering furious speed all the time. I was up on my knees, wanting to look out again, to see what was happening, but the stranger pulled me down again, and held me there. “He’ll be back,” he said. “Stay put where you are, you hear me!” He was covering Ma and me now, his arms around us both, holding us to him, hands over our heads, protecting us.
He was right about the plane. Only moments later it was back and attacking again. We heard a bomb exploding, and the repeated rattattattatt rattattatt of firing, and with it came the whining and the roaring of the plane’s engine as it passed overhead. And all the while, the train raced on, faster, faster, until we were plunged into the sudden blackness of a tunnel. The brakes went on, hard, so shrill and loud that it hurt my ears. We found ourselves thrown violently together, squeezed half up against the seat, and half underneath it. The squealing of the brakes seemed to go on forever, and all the while the stranger clung on to us tight, until at long last the train came to a shuddering, hissing halt, and we were lying together there in the darkness. It felt almost as if the train and ourselves were breathing in unison, panting, both of us trying to calm down. The carriage was thick with darkness, pitch black.
“Don’t like tunnels,” I said, trying my best not to sound as frightened as I was. “How long we going to be in here, Ma?”
“Best place for us just at the moment, son,” the stranger told me. “And we’re safe enough, that’s for sure. We got a lot to thank the train driver for. He’ll stay in here long as it takes, I reckon. Don’t you worry, son.” He was helping me to my feet and sitting me down. I felt Ma’s arm come around me. She knew what I was going through. It wasn’t the German plane or the shooting that terrified me – that had been exciting. It was the dark, this thick solid wall of blackness all around me, closing in on me, enveloping me. Ma knew I couldn’t stand it, that I had to have the light on outside my bedroom door at night, as well as the lamp in the street outside. I felt a sob of fear rising in my throat and swallowed it, but it came back up again and again, like hiccups of terror that would not stop.
“It’s the dark,” Ma explained. “Barney don’t like it, never has.”
“Nor me neither,” said the stranger. And as he spoke there was a sudden flicker of light in the darkness, then an orange flame, which lit up his face and his smile, then the whole carriage. “Smoke a pipe, don’t I?” he went on, “so I always have my box of matches handy. Swan Vestas – you know, the ones