In the Approaches. Nicola Barker
what?’ I demand, wincing (although I know exactly what she’s about to say).
‘That he wanted to talk to you. That he’s obsessed by you – stalking you. That you would naturally be the “crucial witness”. The main focus. The hidden key to it all! You’ve been actively looking forward to rejecting his advances, but he hasn’t actually made any. He’s been the perfect gentleman! Face it, Carla, you’re more obsessed than he is!’
‘I didn’t presume anything …’ I grumble, wounded. Once again – as a distraction – I start untangling the line. ‘Although it was perfectly reasonable to assume that after he’d approached pretty much everyone even remotely connected to the Cleary visit … I mean he tracked down the milkman, Alys! Old Billy Peck who was always deaf as a post. He tracked him down. And the woman who ran the mobile library – I don’t even remember her name!’
‘Meredith Brown. So perhaps he got what he needed from other sources?’ Alys suggests brightly.
‘Yes. Yes. Maybe he did.’ I sullenly play along.
‘I mean it’s not anything too in-depth that he’s after, just a series of captions for this little book of photographs. By Kimberly Couzens. That Canadian woman. The photographer. You know – the one who was with Mr Cleary when …’
‘Well hopefully he’s satisfied with what he’s got,’ I concur, moving a couple of feet closer to the window (as a consequence of my untangling), ‘and now he’ll clear off and leave us all in peace.’
‘Hopefully,’ she echoes (perhaps not entirely convinced).
‘Is it raining in Hove?’ I wonder.
‘It was earlier. Fairlight?’
‘Tipping it down.’
I gaze out at the rain.
‘Are you thinking of heading back?’ Alys wonders, after a brief silence.
‘Sorry?’
‘To the cottage. To sort it all out.’
‘No!’ I snort, then, ‘Yes. I am, actually. But he’ll probably be home again by now.’
‘You should go anyway, and if he is there, apologize. Make it heartfelt. It was an awful thing to do, Carla. He’ll think you’re completely unbalanced!’
I grimace.
‘And after I told him – at such unbearable length – about what a dear little lamb you are!’ she murmurs, softening.
I promptly baaaa (it’s automatic, semi-ironic, perfectly sincere). I have always – always – been Alys’s dear, little lamb.
‘Exactly!’ She chuckles. ‘But don’t just hang around in Fairlight pointlessly over-analysing everything like you normally do. Each second counts. Your honour is at stake here – and that of the entire community, by default,’ she adds.
Great. No pressure then. I solemnly inspect the rivulets of water trickling drably – incessantly, wetly – down the windowpane. Of course she is right. Alys invariably is. I will go. I was angry. I was wrong. I have behaved like a maniac. I am at a moral disadvantage. It simply won’t do.
I draw a deep breath and steel myself, preparing to say my goodbyes, but am momentarily distracted by an unexpected rumble – very low, like a long, metal snake of conjoined supermarket trolleys being pushed, some distance away, across a wide expanse of tarmac. Oh God, I recognize that sound! My skin instantly starts to prickle its automatic response (Quick! Run, Carla, run!). Seconds later (and I haven’t even shifted by so much as a centimetre) – pouf! – my garden shed evaporates.
6
Baldo! Baldo! Baldo! Baldo! WAH!
WAH!
‘Sun’ near ‘cage’! Yay! ‘Sun’ near ‘cage’! Look at ‘sun’! Joy! Blink! Look at ‘sun’! Near ‘cage’. Happy. Happy ‘sun’. Rock, rock, rock. Happy!
Hup! Whassat? Eh? Ooogh! Ooogh! Oooooogh …! Urgh! Big poo! Aaah. Aaaah! Good.
Where’d it go?
Eh?
Twizzle head.
Eh?
Where’d poo go?
Ah!
Look! Look!
‘Seed bowl’!
Yay!
Baldo crap in ‘seed bowl’! Baldo crap in ‘seed bowl’!
Yay!
‘Sun’ near ‘cage’. Happy! Happy ‘sun’! Crap all done. Aaaah! Happy moment. Happy moment. Crap done. In bowl.
Now what?
Wanna fly! Wanna fly! Wanna fly!
Nest. Where’s nest? Why no nest? Wanna nest. Baldo find ‘twig’. Baldo find ‘straw’. Baldo find soft, soft, soft … Wanna fly! No. No. No fly. No nest. Sad. Sad moment. Sad Baldo.
Whassat?!
Itch! Urgh! Itch! Itch! ITCH!!! Gotta … gotta … Oooh! Yeah. Yeah …
Scratch, scratch, scratch. Feather, feather, feather! Look! Soft feather down like grey snow! Good! Good for nest. Oh. No. No nest.
Poor Baldo.
Hmmn.
‘Room’.
‘Cage’. ‘Chair’. ‘Lamp’. ‘Dresser’. ‘Ceiling’. No sky! ‘Ceiling’. No sky! Dead sky. Gone sky. Can’t … can’t …! No sky!
Wanna fly.
Sad moment.
Whassat? ‘Sun’! Baldo, look! See ‘sun’!
Getting closer!
Joy!
Baldo! Baldo! Baldo! Baldo!
Hmmn.
Egg.
Why no egg?
Why no nest?
Bounce! Bounce! Bounce! Bounce!
Baldo! Baldo! Baldo! Baldo! Wah! Wah! WAH!
Oh … Uh-oh … Here she comes, here she comes. Jailer! Bitch! Here she comes! Bow, deep bow. Respectful. Deep bow. Baldo, Baldo, Baldo, Baldo …
Away she goes again! Gone. Gone! Lonely Baldo. Ruffle feathers. Where’s the …?
‘Mirror’! Ring the ‘bell’! Look in ‘mirror’!
WAH!
Look! Look! Whosat? Whosat? Spirit parrot! Whosat? Eye! Evil! Beak! Sharp! Dead parrot! Ghost parrot! Whosat?
WAH!
Ruuuun!
Wanna fly! Wanna fly! Wanna fly!
Escape!
Huh?
Whassat?! Roar! Waterfall! Thunder! It’s the screaming monster! YAAARGH! She’s back! Bitch is back! She’s got the metal monster! Horrible! Horrible! Waterfall! Storm! Thunder! Death! Terrible roar! Angry monster! Hungry monster! Under ‘chair’! Under ‘little table’! Bitch is riding the metal monster! Under ‘cage’! … WAH!
Wanna fly! Wanna