Как перестать существовать и начать жить. Олеся Бахтина

Как перестать существовать и начать жить

это система, представленная в уме каждого человека набором шаблонов, стереотипов, заблуждений.

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Чайлдфри (прим. автора) – субкультура и идеология, характеризующаяся сознательным нежеланием иметь детей.

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Имена героев изменены с целью сохранить конфиденциальность. Все описанные жизненные ситуации основаны на реальных событиях.

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