Трудно быть человеком. Мэтт Хейг

Трудно быть человеком

А. Гаврилова.

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Из стихотворения Э. Дикинсон. Пер. Смарника. (Здесь и далее – прим. ред.)

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Симфоническая сюита британского композитора Густава Холста, состоящая из семи частей, согласно количеству планет, известных на момент ее создания (1914–1916).

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