Her Cowboy Soldier. Cindi Myers
against the rush of emotion. Amy wasn’t his friend. She’d stabbed him in the back and all but ridiculed him in public. He couldn’t let his guard down around her.
She straightened as he approached and regarded him coolly, the smile vanished. “Hello, Josh.”
“We need to talk,” he said.
“I’m busy right now.” She picked up a tomato and weighed it in her hand, her slender fingers curled around the plump red fruit. Was she debating throwing it at him?
He suppressed a smile at the thought and called to Bobbie, who sat at the cash register across the stand. “You can spare Amy for a few minutes, can’t you, Bobbie?”
“Of course. Amy, you can give Josh a few minutes.” She looked over the top of her glasses like a stern schoolmarm.
Amy gave a little shake of her head, but walked out from underneath the canopy that covered the produce stall, to the shade of a gnarled elm. He followed her. Even at this distance the air was redolent with the smell of ripe tomatoes, peppers and onions, the fruits of the Anderson Orchards greenhouses. Josh had worked in similar greenhouses in college, a lifetime ago.
Amy stood with her back to him, arms folded across her chest. He’d come here all fired up to argue with her about the hatchet job she’d done on him in her article, but now she looked, not defenseless exactly, but vulnerable. “I read the article in the paper,” he said. “The one you wrote about the game.”
“Oh.” Her gaze met his, calm and steady. Unreadable.
“Why did you twist my words around?” he asked. “You left out everything I said about the kids and focused on everything negative.”
Color rose in her cheeks. “The story was not negative. I focused on what I saw as the real news angle—how an inexperienced coach managed to turn a losing team around.”
“You misquoted me.”
She unfolded her arms and drew herself up as tall as possible. “I did not.”
“All right, but you left out part of my words. That changed the meaning of what I said.”
“Nothing I wrote in that article is untrue.”
“It’s not exactly true, either.”
She relaxed her shoulders and lowered her voice, visibly pulling herself together. “I have a job to do and I’m trying to do it. That job isn’t to make you look good.”
“I don’t care if you make me look good, but if you’re going to tell a story, tell the whole story, not just the part you think makes good copy.”
She looked as if she really wished she had that tomato back. No projectiles handy, she settled for glaring at him; the fire in her eyes might have moved him if he hadn’t been the one she was searing with the heat. “Look, there’s nothing personal here,” she said. “I’m just trying to do my job.”
“And I’m trying to do mine, without people like you questioning my abilities.”
“The way you’re questioning my abilities?”
Ouch! Okay, so maybe he had that coming. “I already told you I thought you were a good writer. But maybe you should leave the sports stories to the regular sports reporter.”
“Oh, this is so typical!” Her pretense of calm vanished. Face flushed, she clenched her fists at her side. “You think the world revolves around you and what you want.”
“In this case, this is about me. My name is the one you’re smearing in the dirt with your article.” His voice rose, and he struggled to rein in his anger. He didn’t think of himself as an overly emotional guy, but Amy summoned a host of strong feelings, not all of them good, by any means.
“This isn’t about you,” she insisted. “This is about me. I’m the new reporter here in town and I have to prove myself.”
How many times had he said the same thing—that he had to prove that he was capable of teaching and coaching? He wasn’t just the wounded veteran who’d won the job out of pity; he was capable and talented and the best man for the job. Did Amy really think people were judging her the way they judged him?
“You don’t have to prove yourself,” he said. “People already accept you. You’re Bobbie’s granddaughter.”
She shook her head. “That doesn’t matter to an editor in Denver.”
“Why do you care what an editor in Denver thinks?”
“Denver or Dallas, or any city where I try to get a job once I leave here. I need solid clips that show I can write more than fluff about the local 4-H and tedious reports about city council meetings. I need to show I can uncover the real meat of a story.”
“So you decided to go after me to showcase your skills?”
“I didn’t go after you. I went after the story.”
“I don’t get it,” he said. “It’s a baseball game. Why try to stir up controversy?”
“I’m a journalist. I’m trained to look for the story behind the story.”
“This is the Hartland Herald, not the National Enquirer. There is no story behind the story.”
“I don’t agree with you. I think your story is much more interesting than a baseball game.”
“What do you mean by that?”
“You came home from the war and slipped right into a good job and a good life, no problems at all. Do you know how lucky that is? How unusual, even?”
“How do you know I don’t have problems? You don’t even know me.”
“I know the school board went out of its way to make a place for you, and chose you over other candidates who may have been more qualified.”
“So you don’t think I deserve my job?” Saying the words hurt. He hated that she saw him as a charity case.
“Not if every veteran doesn’t get those breaks.”
Every veteran—or the one who could never enjoy the “breaks” he had, because he’d never made it home from the war? Until that moment, he’d forgotten Amy was a war widow. “I’m sorry about your husband,” he said. “But that’s not my fault.”
“This has nothing to do with Brent.”
“Doesn’t it?”
She looked away, but not before he recognized the hurt in her eyes. He felt like a heel for reminding her of that pain. So what if he’d lost a hand? Her husband—and by extension, she and her daughter—had made the ultimate sacrifice. He really was lucky by comparison.
“Never mind,” he said, and turned away.
“Never mind what?”
“Write whatever you want about me. It’s up to me to prove myself despite the naysayers.”
He turned and strode back to his truck, aware of her gaze boring into him. He’d been struggling to prove himself to someone most of his life—his coaches, his father, his superior officers. But most of all, he constantly battled to live up to his own high expectations. One woman’s story in the local paper wasn’t going to change that.
* * *
AMY DIDN’T KNOW who she was more furious with—Josh for questioning the truthfulness of her article, or herself for letting him get to her. So what if she had presented the facts in a particular way to shape her story? That was part of her job, wasn’t it? And maybe the real reason he was upset was because she’d hit too close to the truth. She shouldn’t feel guilty about that, should she?
“What was all that about?” Bobbie didn’t even feign disinterest when Amy returned to the produce stall.
“He was upset about