Indigo Summer. Monica McKayhan

      I always cried for a week after Nana was gone.

      I’d tell her about all the ugly, stupid boys in my class and tell her how much I hated them.

      “You just wait until they grow up,” Nana would laugh and say. “You’ll like boys one of these days, trust me.”

      “I don’t think so, Nana.” I couldn’t even imagine looking at a boy for more than ten seconds without being ready to puke. And to like them? Now that was taking it a bit too far. “Why are boys so stupid?”

      “I don’t know, baby.” I could see Nana’s smile in the moonlight; her calmness is what I admired most about her. “They just are. And they don’t get much better with age, either. In fact, some of them get worse. You’ll see when you get married.”

      “I’m never getting married, Nana.” I wanted to make that crystal clear!

      “Never?” Nana would ask with a look of surprise.

      “Never!” My mind was made up. She’d see.

      And I swore I’d never have kids either. Because if all little kids worked my nerves like my little cousin, Keith Jr. did, then I was never becoming anybody’s mama. Good thing I only had to see him on holidays. Since my uncle Keith and his wife were divorced, he only had Keith Jr. every other weekend and on Thanksgiving, during spring break and on the Fourth of July.

      It seemed that everybody was getting a divorce, and I hoped that it would never happen to my parents. It happened to my best friend Jade’s parents. Just when she thought they were this big happy family, boom, that’s when it happened. And it seemed to happen overnight. Her folks had a big argument one night and the next thing Jade knew, her daddy was loading his stuff into the back of a U-Haul. I watched the whole thing from my bedroom window. They lived next door since Jade and I were in the third grade. We had been best friends just that long.

      I still remember when they moved in, and Mama made me go over and introduce myself to the little girl next door. She had baked them a lemon cake and said for me to take it over there. Jade was on her front porch playing with her Barbies, and when she let me see her Barbie doll—and I told her I had four of them at home—it was on. From that day forward we were inseparable.

      In fifth grade we had our own Kool-Aid stand, selling beverages to the neighbors as they passed by our little makeshift stand. In seventh grade we both tried out for cheerleading, and neither one of us made the team because we couldn’t do the splits. In the eighth grade we played volleyball together, but decided it wasn’t our game. We both knew that when we got to high school we’d try out for the dance team. That was our sole purpose for wanting to attend George Washington Carver High, to join their dance team, which was known throughout the city for their outstanding performances. They often performed during parades and stuff, and the whole town recognized their talent. Articles were written about them in the newspaper. To make that team meant you were one of the most talented dancers in all of Atlanta.

      It’s all we talked about the summer after eighth grade. We spent hours learning all the latest dances and brushing up on our moves. We were determined to make that dance team if it was the last thing we did in this lifetime! But then her folks split up. I never knew that when I watched her daddy load his things into that U-Haul, it was the beginning of the end.

      “What your mama cook for dinner?” I remember asking her that day.

      “Nothing. She’s mad at my daddy.”

      “What did he do?”

      “He came home late again last night,” she said, almost in a whisper. “Real late.”

      “Where do you think he was?”

      “I don’t know, but she was really mad. They had a bad argument, too,” she said. “I don’t think they love each other anymore.”

      “For real?” I asked, lying across my canopy bed and talking to Jade on my cell phone, as she sat on her bed in her room just a spit’s distance away.

      If I stood in my bedroom window, I could see Jade’s pink-and-white comforter on her bed, her bookshelf and the Usher poster she had plastered on her wall. I knew when she brushed her teeth and said her prayers at night, and I knew when she awakened in the morning, because the light from her room would creep across my face and wake me up, too. I would often throw Skittles at her window in order to wake her up when she tried to sleep in on Saturday mornings.

      “Yes, for real,” she said, almost in tears after her parents’ big fight. “She told him to move out.”

      “Do you think she was serious?”

      “He’s packing his stuff right now, as we speak,” she said.

      My heart skipped a beat when she said that. That night, I closed my eyes real tight, knelt beside my bed and prayed that God would not only keep Jade’s parents together, but mine, too. I didn’t ever want my daddy packing his things and moving away.

      I guess he missed the part about Jade’s parents, because the next day her father was gone.