Mills & Boon Stars Collection: Convenient Vows. Sharon Kendrick
‘Because you were powerless,’ she said slowly. ‘A man always is in a situation like that. She didn’t want you to know and there was nothing else you could have done. You answered her questions truthfully because you didn’t know why she was asking them.’
‘And maybe I should have guessed,’ he said bitterly.
‘But you didn’t have that kind of relationship, did you? It was supposed to be upfront and honest, but that only works if both parties want the same thing. Was that around the time you left England?’
He nodded. ‘I couldn’t wait to get away. To leave the old, tainted life behind me. I went to Australia and started a new life there. I set up offices in Brisbane and bought the cattle station. I just happened to be in the right place at the right time—because the country was ripe for new technology. The money started pouring in and the work provided a distraction, but whenever I could I would spend any spare time I had at Poonbarra, working on the land.’
It must have been a kind of escape for him, thought Sophie, to muster those cattle and build those fences. To toil and sweat beneath the fierce and unforgiving sun. A new life, far away from the pain of the old one. Just as it had been for her.
She guessed that was why he’d rarely returned to England and why he hadn’t seen much of his family over the years, because the chance of running into Molly’s twin must have filled him with horror. She thought about what he’d said about his mother. Women hadn’t done right by Rafe Carter, had they? No wonder he’d stayed away from commitment and why he regarded them as nothing more than sexual playthings.
But today he had confronted all the darkness of his past. Did that mean he had drawn a line in the sand and could finally leave it behind? ‘Rafe—’
‘No.’ His voice was harsh now. ‘I don’t want to talk about it any more, Sophie. Do you understand?’
Oh, she understood, all right. How could she fail to? She nodded as he began to walk towards her and knew from the dark look on his face that he wanted to take out his pent-up anger and frustration on her and just how he intended to do it. Was he treating her as a convenience, using her to blot out the bitter memories of what another woman had done to him, and shouldn’t she object to that? Yet the moment he pulled her into his arms and kissed her, she didn’t care. Who cared if his passion was fuelled by anger? Was it so wrong to want him this badly?
She acknowledged the brutal hardness of his kiss, but when her hands reached up to cradle his head, he groaned and softened it. He unzipped her skirt so that it pooled around her ankles and she stepped out of it and pulled at his trouser belt, as intent on quickly removing his clothes as he was hers. But she could feel something deep in her heart being tugged as he drew her against his naked body. Some stupid little ache that made her long for something more than the satisfaction of the physical.
The rug in front of the blazing fire wasn’t particularly soft but Sophie didn’t care about that either. All she could feel was the warmth from the flames licking over their bare skin as their bodies met. Wordlessly she moved over him, straddling him. She could feel the hard bones of his hips against the softness of her thighs—and he felt very big as she brought him deep inside her. They’d never done it in this position before and her initial tentativeness was instantly banished by the smoky look of pleasure on his face as he filled her. He spread his fingers over her breasts and played with her hardened nipples as she rode him with a total lack of inhibition. And when her body began to tighten with the now familiar shimmerings of orgasm, his hands anchored her so that he went deeper still until she gasped out loud, in Greek.
* * *
She must have drifted off to sleep because when she opened her eyes, it was to find that Rafe had covered them with a blanket and his naked body was pressed against her bare back. For a moment she just revelled in the feel of his warm flesh next to hers and the way he’d slung his arm over her hips, so that his fingertips rested carelessly in the cluster of curls at her thighs. She remembered the things he’d told her about his past. The way he’d unburdened himself. Did it mean something that he’d chosen to confide in her, or was she in danger of reading too much into the situation? No matter. The future could wait. Lying there together like that was just about perfect and as she stirred a little she could feel his hand automatically begin to drift downwards, when there was a loud banging at the bedroom door.
‘Rafe?’ It was Nick’s voice.
‘Go away,’ Rafe mumbled, his breath warm against the back of her neck.
‘I need to speak to you. Now.’
Cursing a little beneath his breath, Rafe got to his feet and pulled on a pair of jeans, still doing up the zip as he walked over and opened the door, behind which his half-brother was standing. He didn’t invite him in and Sophie couldn’t hear what was being said—only the low murmur of their voices before Rafe quietly closed the door and came back into the room.
She looked up into his face, but if she’d been hoping for some new kind of openness after the things they’d talked about, then she’d been way off mark because his features were as dark and as unreadable as ever. ‘Is something wrong?’
‘You could say that.’ His voice sounded grim. ‘My brother’s had a phone call from the landlord of the local pub. The snow has started to melt and a man and woman have checked in. He thinks they may be journalists.’
She sat up, clutching onto the blanket. ‘How—?’
He shrugged. ‘I suspect Sharla let them know you’re here—inadvertently or not, I don’t know. The question is how we deal with it.’
Sophie shook her head. ‘There’s only one way to deal with it and I can’t keep avoiding it for ever. There’s no point in me trying to concoct another life—it won’t make any difference. And maybe it’s time to stop running.’ She clutched the blanket a little tighter to her breasts. ‘To let Myron know I’m a grown-up now and can make my own decisions. To tell him that I need to forge a new future for myself.’
His eyes narrowed. ‘And do you know what that future will be?’
‘Not yet. I’d just hoped...’
‘Hoped what?’ he questioned as her words tailed away.
She shrugged. ‘I don’t know. After my fairly successful stab at independence, it’s a pity I have to return being pursued by the press. I’d hoped to make a more...controlled arrival.’
‘Unless you refuse to play ball,’ he said slowly.
‘What do you mean?’
‘Why should the damned press back you into a corner?’ he demanded. ‘Why go back earlier than originally planned?’
‘That was pretty much on the cards the minute you returned unexpectedly to Poonbarra. I don’t really have any alternative, Rafe. I can’t stay here. And I can’t face the thought of turning up somewhere else just before Christmas, with a load of news-hungry journalists on my tail.’
There was a pause. ‘Unless you came to New York with me for Christmas.’
Sophie tried to squash the leap of hope in her heart as she met his shadowed gaze. ‘But you must have plans?’
‘None I can’t get out of. The only thing set in stone is my Boxing Day ski trip to Vermont. But New York is the most anonymous city in the world and I can have my PR people make sure nobody bothers you.’
‘I don’t know,’ she said, even though she was filled with an excitement she was trying very hard to contain.
‘The city is beautiful during the holidays,’ he continued softly. ‘And I think there’s a lot more sex we need to have before I’m willing to let you go. I’m not offering you a home, Sophie—as long as you understand that. Just a temporary shelter.’
Her smile didn’t falter, even though the baldness of his statement left her in no doubt of his feelings for her. But surely it was better to know exactly where she