Run Away, My Angel. Virginie T.
You don't have to look at me that way. You can't afford to pay the rent and the expenses. In any event all the bills already come to my name, and I'm the one who paid for all the furniture.
In one day, I lost everything. My job, my dreams of an ideal life and my fiancé. Ex-fiancé. So I better get used to it right away. I get up with a stiff movement.
— Why wait? I'm going to pack my bags.
— Mallory.
He sighs before he continues.
— Don't take it like that. I do it for the both of us.
I'm choking with rage.
— For us? So, you are kicking me out to repair our relationship?
At least he has the decency to look down.
— You only do it for yourself. And now, if you allow me, I will hurry to pack my things so that my presence will no longer bothers you.
Luckily, Brandon doesn't follow me into the room. I wouldn't have had the courage to continue our verbal jousting. The day is not over and my heart is already in tatters when I pack my clothes in a travel bag. I only take the essentials, having no more space, and the sound of the zipper when I close the bag makes me realize the finality of the last events. I am going to have to start from scratch, to rebuild myself, and I'm going to have to do it alone. Go back to my parents? No need to even think about. I am old enough not to live with mom and dad and then have to account for everything I do.
I leave the house without saying a word and without looking back. Brandon kindly offered me to take his car. I bite my tongue so as not to tell him that he could shove the key up to where I thought. As if it were not to later on scold me for having used HIS car! I'd rather have my feet on fire walking than endure another humiliation.
Chapter 3
Mallory
I don't know how long I have been walking along the road, but the strap of my travel bag is starting to hurt my shoulder and my legs have trouble supporting my weight, to which it is now added the weight of my big bag. I drag myself around aimlessly, not knowing where to go, when a car pulls up next to me. I turn my head in the opposite direction, having no desire to explain to a stranger what I am doing on the side of the road with my stuff on my back. The unwelcome stranger decides otherwise. I hear the passenger window coming down and the music coming from the car twists my eardrums. The hard-core music is carried by the wind at a mind-boggling sound level. Suddenly the sound dies off and a voice that I did not expect addresses me.
— Mal? What are you doing here?
I turn around to be sure I am not hallucinating, but no, it is my friend behind the wheel of his car. I would cry for joy if my tears were not dry. All I do is stare at him, without moving or answering. He then decides to pull over to the side of the road and goes around the car to join me.
— You're okay?
I nod, unable to speak.
— Let me help you.
He takes my bag and throws it in the trunk before opening the passenger door.
— Hop in. I'll take you home. Let’s both talk and you’ll tell me what's going on.
I get into the car like an automaton, always silent, and my friend straps on my seatbelt that I did not even have the reflex to do. I suddenly feel less alone and I hope that emptying my bag will allow me to see more clearly and have a plan for the future, because I cannot wander aimlessly forever.
I realize I had never been to his house. Not even once. His house is small, away from the road and from any neighbors. The small path which leads to his front door is rough and I jump on my seat. That dangerously stirs my stomach, which revolts with these chaotic movements.
— Sorry. I haven't had time to fix the outside of the house yet.
I give him a weak smile, keeping my mouth tight so as not to vomit on the gear stick. Fortunately, it does not last more than a minute and we park in front of a small exposed brickwork house that has a crazy charm.
— It's very pretty.
He smiles at me and a dimple appears on his left cheek.
— Thank you, I inherited it from my grandmother a few years back and I've been trying to revamp it ever since.
He goes around the car to open my door, very gentlemanly.
— Come on. I'll make you a nice cup of tea and we can talk.
He grabs my hand and I think of rejecting it. I have not held the hand of any one but Brandon’s for a long time and this strange, bigger, stronger hand leaves an unpleasant impression on me. My host does not notice my distress and makes me go inside by an old wooden red door that closes after I come in. I barely have time to detail his entrance decorated with a mirror that leads me to a state-of-the-art kitchen, perfectly equipped, with a huge piano and a large island lined with comfortable high stools.
— Sit down there. I'll prepare you some tea.
I take the opportunity to turn around and look at the house with curious eyes. Everything is modern, friendly looking, and yet I feel awkward. There are no photos, no trinkets, no traces of life. Everything is superb, but sanitized, like a show house without a soul. It is difficult to imagine that a single man lives in this place. Where is the mess? The dirty laundry lying around? Any sign of life, please!
— You take two sugars, don’t you?
I turn my attention back to my friend.
— Yes, thank you.
He places my cup in front of me and I take advantage of the warmth on my hands to refocus. It feels good to be taken care of. However, I have to think about what comes next.
— Are you ready to tell me what happened after you hung up?
It is true that when we spoke, I was in tears, confined in my car. My ex-car. Everything became ex after that phone call.
— I told you to call me if you needed to.
— I didn't want to disturb you.
Which is true. In part. I already felt I was a burden for my ex-fiancé. I did not want to become one for Leon, the friend who has supported me in recent months, against all odds.
— You’ll never bother me Mal. I have already told you.
He plays with my fingers on the table and a shiver lifts my spine. I get my hand back and I hug my shoulders to warm me, although I doubt that the cold is responsible for my goosebumps.
— I had an argument with Brandon.
The memory of the last words uttered by the ex-love of my life clogs my throat with a ball as big as a football.
— It's going to get better Mal. As always.
The ball gets bigger in my windpipe. I feel like I am suffocating,
— No. No, it's not going to get any better. He asked me to leave. He wants us to take a break.
I start laughing with a laugh that is both hysterical and somewhat frightening, even to my ears.
— Everyone knows what it means to take a break. He has broken up. He has left me. For good.
Leon purses his lips in front of me which now become invisible behind his full black beard.
— Brandon is an idiot. He will regret it.
My laughter gradually turns into tearful sobs and a torrent of tears invades my face before I realize it. It seems that the tear fountain has not dried up.
— He swept away more than two years of relationship as if nothing had happened. As if this time together did not matter. The only one to blame is me. I should have made more effort. I should have listened to his fears. He just wanted me to find a job and...
— Shh. Stop it Mal. Breathe.