Stover at Yale. Owen Johnson
He camped down, one among a hundred, oblivious of his companions, hands locked over his knees, his glance strained down the field to where, against the blue sweater of a veteran, a magic Y was shining white. For a moment he felt a plunging despair—he was but one among so many. The whole country seemed congregated there in competition. Others seemed to overtop him, to be built of bone and muscle beyond his strength. He felt a desire to shrink back and steal away unperceived, as he had that awful moment when, on his first test at school, he had been told that he must stand up and fill the place of a better man.
Then he was on his feet, in obedience to a shouted command, journeying up the field to where beyond the stands a tackling dummy on loose pulleys swung like a great scarecrow.
"Here, now, get some action into this," said a fiery little coach, Tompkins, quarter-back a dozen seasons before. "Line up. Get some snap to it. First man. Hard—hit it hard!"
The first three—heavy linesmen, still soft and short of breath—made lumbering, slipping attempts.
Tompkins was in a blaze of fury.
"Hold up! What do you think this is? I didn't ask you to hug your grandmother; I told you to tackle that dummy! Hit it hard—break it in two! If you can't tackle, we don't want you around. Tackle to throw your man back! Tackle as if the whole game depended on it. Come on, now. Next man. Jump at it! Rotten! Rotten! Oh, squeeze it. Don't try to butt it over—you're not a goat! Half the game's the tackling! Next man. Oh, girls—girls! What is this bunch, anyhow—a young ladies' seminary? Here! Stop—stop! You're up at Yale now. I'll show you how we tackle!"
Heedless of his street clothes, of the grotesqueness of the thing, of all else but the savage spark he was trying to communicate, he went rushing into the dummy with a headlong plunge that shook the ropes.
He was up in a moment, forgetting the dust that clung to him, shouting in his shrill voice:
"Come on, now, bang into it! Yes, but hold on to it! Squeeze it. Better—more snap there! Get out the way! Come on! Rotten! Take that again—on the jump!"
Stover suddenly felt the inflaming seriousness of Yale, the spirit that animated the field. Everything was in deadly earnest; the thing of rags swinging grotesquely was as important as the tackle that on a championship field stood between defeat and victory.
His turn came. He shot forward, left the turf in a clean dive, caught the dummy at the knees, and shook the ground with the savageness of his tackle.
"Out of the way, quick—next man!" cried the driving voice.
There was not a word of praise for what he knew had been a perfect tackle. A second and a third time he flung himself heedlessly at the swinging figure, in a desperate attempt to win the withheld word of approbation.
"He might at least have grunted," he said to himself, tumbling to his feet, "the little tyrant."
In a moment Tompkins, without relaxing a jot of his nervous driving, had them spread over the field, flinging themselves on a dozen elusive footballs, while always his voice, unsatisfied, propelling, drove them:
"Faster, faster! Get into it—let go yourselves. Throw yourself at it. Oh, hard, harder!"
Ten minutes of practise starts under his leash, and they ended, enveloped in steam, lungs shaken with quick, convulsive breaths.
"Enough for to-day. Back to the gymnasium on the trot; run off some of that fatty degeneration. Here, youngster, a word with you."
Stover stepped forward.
"What's your name?"
"Stover."
To his profound disappointment, Tompkins did not recognize that illustrious name.
"Where from?"
"Lawrenceville. Played end."
Tompkins looked him over, a little grimly. "Oh, yes; I've heard something about you. Look here, ever do any punting?"
"Some, but only because I had to. I'm no good at it."
"Let's see what you can do."
Stover caught the ball tossed and put all his strength into a kick that went high but short.
"Try another."
The second and third attempts were no better.
"Well, that's pretty punk," said Tompkins. "Dana wants to give you a try on the second. Run over now and report. Oh, Stover!"
Dink halted, to see Tompkins' caustic scrutiny fixed on him.
"Yes, sir."
"Stover, just one word for your good. You come up with a big prep school reputation. Don't make an ass of yourself. Understand; don't get a swelled head. That's all."
"Precious little danger of that here," said Dink a little rebelliously to himself, as he jogged over to the benches where the varsity subs were camped. Le Baron waved him a recognition, but no more. It was as if the gesture meant:
"I've started you. Now stand on your own feet. Don't look to me for help."
For the rest of the practise he sat huddled in his sweater, waiting expectantly as each time Captain Dana passed down the line, calling out the candidates for trials in the brief scrimmages that took place. The afternoon ended without an opportunity coming to him, and he jogged home, in the midst of the puffing crowd, with a sudden feeling of his own unimportance.
He had barely time to get his shower, and run into the almost deserted eating club for a quick supper, when Gimbel appeared, crying:
"I say, Stover, bolt the grub and hoof it. We assemble over by Osborne."
"Where's the wrestling?"
"Don't know. Some vacant lot. Ever do any?"
"Don't know a thing about it."
"We're going to call out a chap called Robinson from St. Paul's, Garden City, for the lightweight, and Regan for the heavy," said Gimbel, who, of course, had been busy during the afternoon. "Thought of you for the middleweight."
"Lord! get some one who knows the game," said Stover, following him out.
"Have you thought of any one you'd like to run for secretary and treasurer?" said Gimbel, locking arms in a cordial way.
"No."
"I've got the whole thing organized sure as a steel trap."
"You haven't lost any time," said Stover, smiling.
"That's right—heaps of fun."
"What are you going to run for?" said Stover, looking at him.
"I? Nothing now. Fence orator, perhaps, later," said Gimbel frankly. "It's the fun of the game interests me—the organizing, pulling wires, all that sort of thing. I'm going to have a lot of fun here."
"Look here, Gimbel," said Stover, yielding to a sudden appreciation of the other's openness. "Isn't this sort of thing going to get a lot of fellows down on you?"
"Queer me?" said Gimbel, laughing.
The word was still new to Stover, who showed his perplexity.
"That's a great word," added his companion. "You'll hear a lot of it before you get through. It's a sort of college bug that multiplies rapidly. Will politics 'queer' me—keep me out of societies? Probably; but then, I couldn't make 'em anyway. So I'm going to have my fun. And I'll tell you now, Stover, I'm going to get a good deal more out of my college career than a lot of you fellows."
"Why include me?"
"Well, Stover, you're going to make a sophomore society, and go sailing along."
"Oh, I don't know."
"Yes, you do. We don't object to such men as you, who have the right. It's the lame ducks we object