The Life of Captain Sir Richard F. Burton (Vol. 1&2). Lady Isabel Burton
from his bed, And wed the Vine-maid in her stead;—fools who believe a word he said!14 And "'Dust thou art to dust returning,' ne'er was spoke of human soul" The Soofi cries, 'tis well for him that hath such gift to ask its goal. "And this is all, for this we're born to weep a little and to die!" So sings the shallow bard whose life still labours at the letter "I." "Ear never heard, Eye never saw the bliss of those who enter in My heavenly Kingdom," Isâ said, who wailed our sorrows and our sin: Too much of words or yet too few! What to thy Godhead easier than One little glimpse of Paradise to ope the eyes and ears of man? "I am the Truth! I am the Truth!" we hear the God-drunk gnostic cry "The microcrosm abides in ME; Eternal Allah's nought but I!" Mansûr15 was wise, but wiser they who smote him with the hurled stones; And, though his blood a witness bore, no wisdom-might could mend his bones. "Eat, drink, and sport; the rest of life's not worth a fillip," quoth the King; Methinks the saying saith too much: the swine would say the self-same thing? Two-footed beasts that browse through life, by Death to serve as soil design'd, Bow prone to Earth whereof they be, and there the proper pleasures find: But you of finer, nobler stuff, ye, whom to Higher leads the High, What binds your hearts in common bond with creatures of the stall and sty? "In certain hope of Life-to-come I journey through this shifting scene" The Zâhid16 snarls and saunters down his Vale of Tears with confi'dent mien. Wiser than Amrân's Son17 art thou, who ken'st so well the world-to-be, The Future when the Past is not, the Present merest dreamery; What know'st thou, man, of Life? and yet, for ever 'twixt the womb, the grave, Thou pratest of the Coming Life, of Heav'n and Hell thou fain must rave. The world is old and thou art young; the world is large and thou art small; Cease, atom of a moment's span, to hold thyself an All-in-All! * * * * * Fie, fie! you visionary things, ye motes that dance in sunny glow, Who base and build Eternities on briefest moment here below; Who pass through Life like cagèd birds, the captives of a despot will; Still wond'ring How and When and Why, and Whence and Whither, wond'ring still; Still wond'ring how the Marvel came because two coupling mammals chose To slake the thirst of fleshly love, and thus the "Immortal Being" rose; Wond'ring the Babe with staring eyes, perforce compell'd from night to day, Gript in the giant grasp of Life like gale-borne dust or wind-wrung spray; Who comes imbecile to the world 'mid double danger, groans, and tears; The toy, the sport, the waif and stray of passions, error, wrath and fears; Who knows not Whence he came nor Why, who kens not Whither bound and When, Yet such is Allah's choicest gift, the blessing dreamt by foolish men; Who step by step perforce returns to countless youth, wan, white and cold, Lisping again his broken words till all the tale be fully told: Wond'ring the Babe with quenched orbs, an oldster bow'd by burthening years, How 'scaped the skiff an hundred storms; how 'scaped the thread a thousand shears; How coming to the Feast unbid, he found the gorgeous table spread With the fair-seeming Sodom-fruit, with stones that bear the shape of bread: How Life was nought but ray of sun that clove the darkness thick and blind, The ravings of the reckless storm, the shrieking of the ravening wind; How lovely visions 'guiled his sleep, aye fading with the break of morn, Till every sweet became a sour, till every rose became a thorn; Till dust and ashes met his eyes wherever turned their saddened gaze; The wrecks of joys and hopes and loves, the rubbish of his wasted days; How every high heroic Thought that longed to breathe empyrean air, Failed of its feathers, fell to earth, and perisht of a sheer despair; How, dower'd with heritage of brain, whose might has split the solar ray, His rest is grossest coarsest earth, a crown of gold on brow of clay; This House whose frame be flesh and bone, mortar'd with blood and faced with skin, The home of sickness, dolours, age; unclean without, impure within; Sans ray to cheer its inner gloom, the chambers haunted by the Ghost, Darkness his name, a cold dumb Shade stronger than all the heav'nly host. This tube, an enigmatic pipe, whose end was laid before begun, That lengthens, broadens, shrinks and breaks;—puzzle, machine, automaton; The first of Pots the Potter made by Chrysorrhoas' blue-green wave;18 Methinks I see him smile to see what guerdon to the world he gave! How Life is dim, unreal, vain, like scenes that round the drunkard reel; How "Being" meaneth not to be; to see and hear, smell, taste and feel. A drop in Ocean's boundless tide, unfathom'd waste of agony; Where millions live their horrid lives by making other millions die. How with a heart that would through love, to Universal Love aspire, Man woos infernal chance to smite, as Min'arets draw the Thunder-fire. How Earth on Earth builds tow'er and wall, to crumble at a touch of Time; How Earth on Earth from Shinar-plain the heights of Heaven fain would climb. How short this Life, how long withal; how false its weal, how true its woes, This fever-fit with paroxysms to mark its opening and its close. Ah! gay the day with shine of sun, and bright the breeze, and blithe the throng Met on the River-bank to play, when I was young, when I was young: Such general joy could never fade; and yet the chilling whisper came One face had paled, one form had failed; had fled the bank, had swum the stream; Still revellers danced, and sang, and trod the hither bank of Time's deep tide, Still one by one they left and fared to the far misty thither side; And now the last hath slipt away yon drear Death-desert to explore, And now one Pilgrim worn and lorn still lingers on the lonely shore. Yes, Life in youth-tide standeth still; in Manhood streameth soft and slow; See, as it nears th abysmal goal how fleet the waters flash and flow! And Deaths are twain; the Deaths we see drop like the leaves in windy Fall; But ours, our own, are ruined worlds, a globe collapst, last end of all. We live our lives with rogues and fools, dead and alive, alive and dead, We die 'twixt one who feels the pulse and one who frets and clouds the head: And—oh, the Pity!—hardly conned the lesson comes its fatal term; Fate bids us bundle up our books, and bear them bod'ily to the worm: Hardly we learn to wield the blade before the wrist grows stiff and old; Hardly we learn to ply the pen ere Thought and Fancy faint with cold: Hardly we find the path of love, to sink the Self, forget the "I," When sad suspicion grips the heart, when Man, the Man, begins to die: Hardly we scale the wisdom-heights, and sight the Pisgah-scene around, And breathe the breath of heav'enly air, and hear the Spheres' harmonious sound; When swift the Camel-rider spans the howling waste, by Kismet sped, And of his Magic Wand a wave hurries the quick to join the dead.19 How sore the burden, strange the strife; how full of splendour, wonder, fear; Life, atom of that Infinite Space that stretches 'twixt the Here and There. How Thought is imp'otent to divine the secret which the gods defend, The Why of birth and life and death, that Isis-veil no hand may rend. Eternal Morrows make our Day; our Is is aye to be till when Night closes in; 'tis all a dream, and yet we die—and then and THEN? And still the Weaver plies his loom, whose warp and woof is wretched Man Weaving th' unpattern'd dark design, so dark we doubt it owns a plan. Dost not, O Maker, blush to hear, amid the storm of tears and blood, Man say Thy mercy made what is, and saw the made and said 'twas good? The marvel is that man can smile dreaming his ghostly ghastly dream;—Better the heedless atomy that buzzes in the morning beam! O the dread pathos of our lives! how durst thou, Allah, thus to play With Love, Affection, Friendship, all that shows the god in mortal clay? But ah! what 'vaileth man to mourn; shall tears bring forth what smiles ne'er brought; Shall brooding breed a thought of joy? Ah hush the sigh, forget the thought! Silence thine immemorial quest, contain thy nature's vain complaint None heeds, none cares for thee or thine;—like thee how many came and went? Cease, Man, to mourn, to weep, to wail; enjoy thy shining hour of sun; We dance along Death's icy brink, but is the dance less full of fun? * * * * * What Truths hath gleaned that Sage consumed by many a moon that waxt and waned? What Prophet-strain be his to sing? What hath his old Experience gained? There is no God, no man-made God; a bigger, stronger, crueller man; Black phantom of our baby-fears, ere Thought, the life of Life, began. Right quoth the Hindu Prince of old,20 "An Ishwara for one I nill, Th' almighty everlasting Good who cannot 'bate th' Eternal Ill:" "Your gods may be, what shows they are?" Hear China's Perfect Sage declare;21 "And being, what to us be they who dwell so darkly and so far?" "All matter hath a birth and death; 'tis made, unmade and made anew; "We choose