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feel lost, and I can’t talk about
things as twisted as that with my
friends—they’ll hate me.
I have to forget this
nonsense and stick
with the people who
love me.
CLEM …
Thomas
is great.
I know
that he
would
do a
lot for
me. Why
can’t I
see that?
CLEM … I GET
THE FEELING YOU’RE
AVOIDING ME, AND
I’D JUST LIKE
TO KNOW …
I DIDN’T
HAVE THE GUTS
YESTERDAY, BUT …
UH … I, I LI KE YOU
A LOT, YOU KNOW,
AND …
I’m a girl,
and girls
date boys.
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CLEMENTINE?
CLEMENTINE, SAY
SOMETHING. ARE YOU
OK?
HEY, BABE, WE’VE BEEN
TOGETHER FOR OVER SIX
MONTHS … BUT IT’S NORMAL TO
BE AFRAID … I WAS TOTALLY
TERRIFIED THE FIRST TIME.
YOU JUST NEED
MORE TIME. PLEASE
DON’T THINK THAT
I’M IN A HURRY. YOU
KNOW THAT YOU CAN
TRUST ME.
HEY …
WHAT
ARE YOU
DOING?
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CLEMENTINE,
WHAT’S GOTTEN INTO
YOU?
STOP!!! WHY ARE
YOU LEAVING LIKE
THAT?
I HAVE NO IDEA
WHAT I AM DOING
HERE, THOMAS.
I AM SO IN LOVE
WITH YOU, YOU KNOW. I
AM BEGGING YOU, PLEASE
STAY. THERE ARE NO MORE
TRAINS AT THIS HOUR.
I’LL TAKE
THE SUBWAY.
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CLEMENTINE?!
MY MOTHER
AND HER
CHRONIC
INSOMNIA …
BUT… YOUR PAJAMA
PARTY AT YOUR
FRIEND’S HOUSE …
AT 3:00 IN
THE MORNING?!
DO YOU REALIZE
WHAT COULD HAVE
HAPPENED TO YOU ?
REALLY, YOU ARE SO
IRRESPONSIBLE!
AND WITH
EVERYTHING
THAT’S
HAPPENING!
GOOD NIGHT,
MOM.
WE GOT INTO A FIGHT.
I WANTED TO COME HOME.
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May 1st, 1995
Dear Diary,
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I’ve already told you about
my disastrous evening
with Thomas, but I still
need to talk about it.
I can’t stop
thinking about
what happened
(and could have
happened), and I
like myself less
and less.
I didn’t even really want to
go to his place and even less
to sleep with him.
But I’m going out with
him—that’s what’s supposed
to happen, isn’t it?
I feel lost, alone, at the bottom
of a pit. I don’t know what to do.
I get the feeling that everything
I do is unnatural.
Against
my nature.
Why does
life work for
other people
and not for
me?
LIFE DOES
NOT WORK FOR
EVERYONE ELSE,
EITHER, MY DEAR
HEART.
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DINNER WILL BE
READY IN A FEW MINUTES.
YOU LIKE SPAGHETTI
BOLOGNESE, DON’T YOU?
YES,
THANK YOU VERY
MUCH. I’LL BE
RIGHT THERE.
THANKS …
THANKS
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YOU KNOW, I CAN LEAVE
RIGHT AFTER WE EAT IF IT
BOTHERS YOU IF I