A Man She Couldn't Forget. Kathryn Shay
casual dress, her hair down around her shoulders. Volumes two and three sported a similar pose. In four, though, her outfit was more sophisticated, and her hair was pulled back in a knot. Gracing the covers of the last two volumes were photos in different expensive outfits and more conservative hairdos.
What was that? Next to each of the cookbooks was a glossy version. Picking one up, she was hit with a flash of memory.
We got a coffee-table book contract, Clare. The publisher wants to do versions for display.
Whose voice was that? Jonathan’s? No, she was sure it wasn’t. Who then? Was someone she worked with totally missing in her life now?
Feeling as if she were about to step off a cliff, she opened the cover. On the inside flap was A Note from Clarissa.
Welcome to my world of cooking. On the pages that follow, though, you’ll find much more. Accompanying the recipes are anecdotes from my childhood right through to today, letters to people who inspired me, and much more, all associated with my life and food. Mostly, they’re a tribute to my grandma, Clarissa Boneli, who raised me. I hope you enjoy these great recipes and uplifting stories. Mangia!
Suddenly she realized she held a journal of sorts of her life. She swallowed hard and her hand tightened on the book. Should she read it? Would it be too much? She began to tremble—in anticipation or dread?
The decision was taken from her by a knock on the door Brady had asked her to leave ajar. He appeared in the archway. Still wearing the shorts and T-shirt he’d walked in, he looked concerned. “You’re awake.” He raised dark brows. “And came out here by yourself? I thought we agreed at lunch that you’d wait for me.”
“No, that was your suggestion. I feel foolish, needing a babysitter, being afraid to go into my own kitchen.” She sank back on a stool at the counter, clutching the cookbook to her chest. “When I came in here, and took out one of these, I felt good.”
He smiled, said, “I’m glad to hear that,” and joined her at the bar, dropping down on the stool next to her. Since waking up from the coma, she didn’t like people crowding her, but when Brady stretched his legs out facing her, she braced her feet on the bottom rung of his stool. He nodded to the book, and his blue eyes sparkled like sapphires. “You should be proud of those. You’re a big success.”
She smiled back at him, wanting to know more about him. “What about you? Are you a success? I don’t even know what you do.”
For a minute, he looked puzzled. “I’m an artist. Actually, an illustrator.”
It was like getting hit with a blast of cold water. “Oh, the sketches in the hallway? They’re yours. I had a visceral response when I saw them. Brady, they’re terrific.”
“You were the one who insisted they be mounted and hung out there. You had them framed even before I said yes.”
“Where’d I get them?”
“Um, mostly from the books I’ve published.”
“You publish books, too? Which ones? How many? Can I see something else you’ve done?”
His gaze dropped to her chest. “You’re holding one.”
“Huh?”
“Turn the book over, Clare.”
She tensed, afraid for the first time since she’d come into this room. She stared at him warily.
“Go ahead. It won’t hurt you. It’s a good memory.”
She turned the book around.
On the back was his picture. Dressed less formally than she, he wore pressed jeans, a silk T-shirt and a taupe blazer. His hair was a bit shorter, but his eyes were the same, long-lashed, crystalline-blue. She read the note with his picture, then peered over at him. “You illustrated my cookbooks?”
“Uh-huh. The anecdotes you wrote and my illustrations are what set them apart from all the other gazillion cook-books on the market.” He hesitated. “We have a new one in the works, too.”
She found herself pleased at what he told her and wanted to know more. “I have a cooking show, too. Are you part of that?”
His expression darkened. “I’ve been a guest. Your viewers wrote in that they liked it when I was there.”
Though she couldn’t recall any of what he was telling her, she could imagine someone with his good looks and apparent charm would be a hit with women watching the show.
But he didn’t seem too happy about this. “Are you still on the show?”
He shook his head. “Clare, you don’t remember anything about this?”
“No.”
A deep frown creased his forehead.
“Why aren’t you on the show anymore?”
Not answering, he stood and went to the fridge. Pulling out a beer, he uncapped it and took a long swig. She watched his throat work and felt something…warm inside her. He set the beer down on the counter and stood across from her, his hands braced on the granite.
“Your boss, Jonathan, wanted the show…scaled up, you might say. A scruffy artist hanging around in a state-of-the-art kitchen didn’t hit the target audience he wanted.”
Her eyes widened. “Oh my God, did I call you a scruffy artist?”
“No! He did.”
She struggled to remember. Instead, images of snakes clouded her mind, just like in the dream. Her temples hurt again. “I don’t remember any of it.”
He didn’t say more, just watched her. Hurt clouded his eyes.
“Why didn’t I stand up to him?”
“Ah, the sixty-four thousand-dollar question.” Before she could respond, he asked, “Do you remember anything about…our relationship?”
She nodded. “Yes, good things. I had flashes as soon as I came home yesterday—cooking for you, you carrying up grocery bags, helping with the garden.”
“Those are early memories.”
“From how long ago?”
“About eight or nine years.”
“My therapist told me that research says those memories often return first. The ones closest to the event that caused the amnesia—if it is psychological—come back last.”
“Yes.” He appeared embarrassed. “I read that on the Internet.”
“The memories that aren’t coming back? Those are the times when I hurt you, aren’t they?”
“I didn’t say that, Clare.”
“You didn’t have to. And it isn’t only you. Delia, too. My own sister doesn’t even call much.”
“Cathy’s sensitive where you’re concerned, ever since you were little and your parents died. But she loves you, Clare, and she’s coming as soon as she gets back from Europe. You’ll have a great reunion.”
“Still. It’s so odd feeling good things for all of you and…them not being returned.”
“They are returned. We’ve just had a rough time of it lately.”
Standing, she circled around the bar and approached him. This close, she could see the nick from shaving he must have gotten this morning. His chest rose and fell, and his features were taut. “Brady, I’m sorry that I’ve hurt you in the past. I sense we were really close.”
“We were.” His voice was husky, calling forth a memory that fled before it fully formed.
Suddenly she wanted this man to hold her again, like he had when he’d carried her last night. So she moved into him and slid her arms around his waist. As natural as spring rain, his arms encompassed