Ночные дневники. Избранное. Ян Фабр

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12 января 1979 года

      I am the Lord of the Idiots.

      (Потому что по ночам я могу получать такое наслаждение

      от перочинного ножа, пары карандашей и листа бумаги.)

Антверпен, 13 января 1979 года

      Иногда я бываю мухой.

      Мухой-однодневкой.

      (Самим ничтожеством, которое нервно носится в воздухе и исчезает в один хлопок.)

Антверпен, 14 января 1979 года

      Я рисую рукой дьявола,

      А если дьявол устает и его сводит судорогой,

      то ангел рисует дальше.

      (Разницы не видно.)

Антверпен, 4 марта 1979 года

      Чего я хочу от самого себя?

      Убедить себя самого?

      Превзойти самого себя?

      Или заставить исчезнуть моего умершего брата?

      После экстаза придет ясность (надеюсь).

Антверпен, 6 марта 1979 года

      Я рисую себя.

      Конец ознакомительного фрагмента. Полный текст доступен на www.litres.ru

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