We Are Not Such Things: A Murder in a South African Township and the Search for Truth and Reconciliation. Литагент HarperCollins USD
in a toyi-toyi, a beautiful, terrifying march-dance originally from Zimbabwe, in which a coordinated group of people lift their knees up high and wave their arms above their heads as they chant and move in protest. As Amy lay on Evaron’s lap, the chants grew louder and clearer and some kids began to lift the car up, hoping to roll it.
“One settler, one bullet.”
Amy, bewildered, her blood-soaked shirt sequined with glass shards, opened the car door and stepped out onto the street.
“Settler, settler!” the mob erupted.
Evaron, Maletsatsi, and Sindiswa toppled out of the car now, too, yelling frantically. The two women appealed to the crowd in Xhosa, insisting that Amy was a student, a comrade, a member of their ANC-aligned National Women’s Coalition. They were waving around their membership cards like tiny laminated shields. A handsome, broad-faced man tried to grab Maletsatsi’s purse, but she shoved him away. A few days later, her back sore, she went for an X-ray and found that her rib had been fractured.
Like most colored South Africans, Evaron spoke English and Afrikaans but did not understand Xhosa. He had never even been to Gugulethu before; he didn’t know these streets. He turned to a man standing nearby.
“What do I do?” he pleaded.
“They just want the settler,” the man explained. Not Evaron, a colored boy—only that fleeing white woman. It didn’t matter that Amy wasn’t a settler, wasn’t even South African.
Evaron was too scared to go to Amy, surrounded as she was by the mob. It would have been futile, and he would likely have been attacked, and so he stood back, edging toward the Caltex as Amy began to run. First she ran west, away from the gas station and across the dotted line separating the lanes in the road. She pressed her hand above her eye, felt the warm blood, the way her skull gave way, and she let out a scream.
Above NY1 at the Caltex is a barren field, strewn with trash and dotted with tufts of dry grass. A team of twelve-year-old boys had been practicing soccer there when they heard a commotion. They sprinted over to the Caltex and stood by the gas tanks, some on their tiptoes, craning their necks. They had grown up in a world steeped in violence, perpetrated by the white government, their black relatives, their black neighbors, the colored gangsters across the way, their parents’ white employers, white strangers, the white and black and colored and Indian cops, white soldiers, bands of black vigilantes, and political leaders of all colors. This pale, wounded lady was certainly a curious display, worth witnessing, but she was not the first person these kids had seen attacked, perhaps not even that day, and she would not be the last. The fact that she was white, however, made the scene particularly memorable; nobody could name the last time a white person had been taken down like this. Not here, in the middle of Gugulethu.
“There was blood, people throwing stones,” remembered one of the soccer-playing boys, now a grown man. “I can’t say I was happy. I can’t say I was angry.”
Over at the elementary school, children had just been released from the nursery, and their parents and guardians had arrived to pick them up. Now they stood on the corner, holding babies and toddlers in their arms or by the hands, and they, too, stopped to watch.
One man, a three-year-old child propped on his hip, briefly surveyed the scene, in which two black women pleaded with a crowd as a mob attacked a young white woman. The crowd was shouting, “Down with white sympathizers!” He watched as if in a dream, until the child cried, pulling him back to reality. He turned and hurried away with the child in his arms. He didn’t feel too cut up about the whole thing.
“Black people were being murdered by white people, so we weren’t sorry,” he told me years later. He wondered about Amy’s friends, though: “Why would these black people bring a white person here? They knew what was happening in our location.”
As the mob surrounded Amy, an old man stormed out of his house, shouting at the attackers, demanding that they leave her be. The mob pushed him away, and he stumbled to the sidewalk. A grandmother ordered her children inside and locked the door. Her grandson, then seven, pressed his hands and nose to the plate glass window.
“She wasn’t really running fast, she was confused,” the grandson remembered twenty years later, sitting in that same living room. “Her hair was not tied. It was loose.”
Evaron and the two women started to pound on the doors of the Caltex, where the station employees had barricaded themselves. The employees shook their heads. Eventually, with no place to run, Evaron, Sindiswa, and Maletsatsi returned to the gas pumps, where they stood next to the soccer team and watched as their friend was hunted.
At first, Amy was heading toward the mob, as though they might save her. Then, perhaps realizing her error, she swerved away. The mob broke into spontaneous groups. Some were upon her abandoned car, trying to pour out the petrol and burn the thing. A young boy yanked open the door and grabbed some of Amy’s books, Evaron’s backpack and sweater, Amy’s bag, and a camera. He took off in a sprint for his mom’s house on NY111. Others stopped and held their stones limply as the scene unfolded, having lost their taste for murder. The majority of young people stood back on the sidewalk by the houses, spectators now, chanting still: “One settler, one bullet.”
A group of men and boys—some say it was eight, some say fifteen—pursued Amy. Residents of NY1, lured by the noise, walked out of their houses and stood now by their gates. Mostly, they were older women, and in the background, blaring from their TVs but muted by the frenzy on the street, was a dialogue of romance and scandal from the afternoon soap operas. The women were joined by people returning from the center of town, who had walked among the mob and had then stopped as an unexpected scene unfolded before them. With the exception of the old man, only one onlooker tried to save Amy.
Pamela was a pretty, curvy twenty-year-old with straight black hair in a short ponytail. She had been hanging out in her backyard, off the main street, when the mob marched by, full of boys and girls she recognized from the neighborhood. When Pamela heard music, something boiled inside her and she had to move, so she joined in the singing and toyi-toyi-ing. Sometimes a protest was just an excuse to do something, to escape the boredom and grind of township life. But when they hit NY1, Pamela realized that this was no normal, peaceful march; to the contrary, this group was in an electric, destructive mood. From a distance, she saw a white person driving toward them.
Pamela watched as the mob began throwing stones. She watched as Amy, bleeding, fell from her car, as the men chased her. Pamela had never before seen Amy, but as Amy ran, Pamela stepped out of the crowd and began, too, to run. Pamela still doesn’t know why she did it. When the cops came to her door days later, she denied all knowledge of the event, and even seasoned officers couldn’t break her resolve.
She ran toward Amy, reaching out her arms. Now Amy and Pamela were running to each other. Pamela touched Amy, she grabbed at her, their hands met, their eyes met, too. Pamela was holding Amy, feeling the blood on Amy’s hands. She and Amy were about the same size—small and athletic—but for a moment Pamela shielded Amy with her body.
But then the men and the boys were there, chanting and yelling and whooping, and bearing down on both of them, waving stones and knives. Pamela knew these boys, but they pushed her aside. Amy pulled away, and Pamela’s hand slipped from hers. Pamela stood on the gravel now, alone, as Amy and the boys ran on.
“It was a very cruel scene to watch,” she told me in 2013.
Amy crossed back over the street at a diagonal to avoid those behind her. She headed in the direction of the gas station. Now she was slower, less steady. The mob was trying to throw stones at her as they ran, and the combination of two efforts—running and pitching—made them less effective at both. She reached a patch of grass just before the white fence and turned around, her hands extended, as if to appeal to her attackers, to offer peace or surrender. Then the handsome, broad-faced man who had tried to steal Maletsatsi’s bag put his foot out to trip her.
Amy pitched backward, but a childhood of gymnastics classes ten thousand miles away had burned balance into her muscle memory, and she fell to the ground in a sitting position, her arms out. She looked up at the