Birthday. Alan Sillitoe
was like roulette: as you crossed a busy road a double-decker missed you by inches, but while you were laughing at the fact that you were still alive cancer had dug its claws into your tripes when you were halfway over, and you hadn’t noticed. Some illness or other was always lurking to get at you.
He wondered whether Avril pined after Fulham where she’d lived till she was eighteen, but she told him, and he had to believe her (because she was the sort who knew her own mind and would always speak the truth), that she was happy anywhere providing she loved the person she was with.
She had managed a factory canteen for over ten years, then got laid off when the place closed. Maybe that hadn’t helped, but she knew the healthiest things to eat, planned all the meals for taste and goodness, so you couldn’t say eating the wrong food had caused the cancer, otherwise why hadn’t he got it as well? When you were young there either weren’t mysteries or you were too busy living to let them matter, but as you got older they wouldn’t be kept in place, and plagued your life.
A daughter from Avril’s first marriage lived in London, and her son worked as a heating engineer at a brewery in Nottingham. The only other relation was her cousin Paul, the indispensable chief fitter at a factory, who kept all sorts of ailing machines going, a skilled job that paid good money. He’d been married to a woman called Adelaide, who had three kids from a previous marriage. After they’d had one of their own she went to work in the office of a place making bedspreads, and that was where the trouble started.
Paul was tall and thin, and as strong as an ox. He wore a little sandy coloured beard, and Arthur often wanted to reach out and pull the crumbs away, but didn’t, as much for the crumbs’ sake as Paul’s, not wanting to deprive the refugee bread of its hiding place, or see Paul eat it when he handed it back to him.
Though Adelaide had married Paul for love, or so you had to suppose, she would never stop telling him that he was too rough in his ways ever to make her happy. Paul worshipped her, would do anything she asked, except remove his beard, or cotton on to the extent of looking more presentable. Maybe he had a screw loose, though he was clever with his hands and must have had a brain because of the job he did. Adelaide was a beautiful and personable woman, who told Paul time and time again that he just wasn’t good enough for her; for which, Arthur thought, I would either have smacked her in the chops or sent her packing, probably both.
Paul only ever stopped working to sleep. He would come home in the evening from the factory, stuff a sandwich into his lantern jawed face (without washing his hands, Arthur supposed) then put in a few hours at a building site fixing machinery till midnight, all to coin extra money so that Adelaide could buy more pots of make-up and have something to spend at the hairdressers’. Arthur once called at the site to have a chat, and Paul was so tired he didn’t notice him walking out with a bag of nuts and bolts, which he took back a few nights later, minus a dozen to fix some bookshelves.
Disaster to Paul’s marriage happened when one of Arthur’s workmates’ wives, who had a job at the same place as Adelaide, told her husband she was being fucked stupid by one of the chief embroiderer’s. Arthur’s mate informed Arthur, who passed the information on to Avril who, Paul being her cousin, had to tell him about Adelaide’s fling, thinking it only right that he should know, and that it was better to be honest because he could then sort out his marriage and go on living amicably with Adelaide, for the children’s sake at least. Arthur had always said, even before learning about the affair, that sooner or later Adelaide would start doing it on her cousin. ‘And so would I,’ he went on, ‘because he won’t tidy himself up. A man’s got to look good now and again in front of his wife, like I do for you.’
Avril laughed, but rewarded him with a kiss. ‘I know. You were always a smart dresser.’
Arthur couldn’t understand why Paul’s fingernails were rarely as clean as they should be, even when he wore a suit on Sundays. Personal cleanliness didn’t cost anything, needed only ten minutes with soap, comb, nailbrush and flannel at the sink every evening. Even when Paul was dressed up as if he was going to Buckingham Palace to get a medal he looked grubby. He sniffed every few seconds as if an invisible turd swung back and forth under his nose. No wonder he’d never had another woman except Adelaide. No other woman would take him on, and Arthur couldn’t understand why Adelaide had, unless she knew she’d be able to shit on him and get away with it more than with any other bloke. She wouldn’t even have him in the same room, never mind in the same bed, after their first kid was born.
Paul was so turned over backwards when he learned about the affair that he could hardly speak to Adelaide. His face was the picture of dangerous humiliation. Arthur hoped he would never have to go through such trouble, had advised Avril not to tell him, but the matter was finally sorted out in their kitchen. Paul leaned against the sink, eyes more and more bloodshot as he tried to hold in his anger, cigarette ash spilling into his beard. Arthur, who had just made some tea, could see it coming, and it did.
Paul let rip, but kept his hands firmly together, calling her a treacherous slimy whore not fit to live with anybody. She was a bag of the first water who thought only about herself. She cared nothing for the kids and even less for him, who had been working like a slave to keep the ship afloat for the last five years. He said the same thing in different ways, over and over, on and on for a good ten minutes, till Adelaide went white because she hadn’t heard so much talk from him, and certainly not of that sort, all the time they’d been together. She had been standing up during his silence, as if ready for a quick getaway should he try to smash her one, but now that he was talking, and wouldn’t become violent, she felt able to sit down. She had to, though Arthur admired her coolness at asking Paul for a fag, which he gave her, and which got them talking with no more bad language or threat of murder. She promised to give up her boyfriend, though Arthur told Avril after they had gone out arm in arm that he didn’t think she would.
He regretted his part as the bringer of bad tidings, because Paul, learning who they had come from, disliked him from then on. ‘He should have seen it as a favour,’ Arthur said, ‘because what man wants to be kept in the dark when his wife’s knocking on with somebody else? Still, I suppose it’s the worst thing, to be a messenger who brings bad news, even if it’s good news. They used to kill messengers in the olden days. I can just picture it. You see this bloke on a horse galloping over the horizon. He’s got a spear waving from his side, and a couple of arrows in his back. He’s in rags, he’s covered in mud and shit, his arse is red raw from riding through deserts and swamps and mountains. After he hands his message to the king, who’s sitting on a chair outside a big coloured tent, he can hardly stand up. The king knocks off a goblet of wine, then reads the message, which is probably about fuck-all. The messenger looks at him like a dog waiting for a pat on the head, but the king gives a nod to his favourite poncy thug, who’s drinking a bottle of four star perfume, and when he finishes it, and after a good belch, he pushes a sword into the messenger’s guts, and finishes the poor fucker off for all his trouble. Well, I wish I hadn’t opened my trap now. I’ll know better next time.’
Not long after the set-to in Avril’s kitchen Adelaide dropped in on her moped at half past eight. It was pissing down, Arthur recalled, and she didn’t say much, only stopped long enough for a cup of tea. As soon as she’d gone he turned to Avril: ‘You know what all that was about?’
‘I don’t. What’s your idea?’
‘Well, she didn’t come to see us because she loves us, but so’s she could have an alibi. She was spread out like a cushion on the chief embroiderer’s table longer than she should have been.’
‘You think so?’
‘I know so. Now she can tell Paul she was with us instead of having it off in the office.’
‘I expect you’re right. You usually are, you dirty-minded devil.’
‘He was fucking her arse off, you can bet. She’s a right one, she is. She’d skin your prick like a banana.’
The embroiderer had a wife and two kids, so both families were broken up when they began living together. Adelaide left the kids with Paul, hoping, Arthur supposed, that they wouldn’t grow up to be fitters in a factory. ‘It was probably the best thing