Alaskan Christmas Cold Case. Sarah Varland
pieces of paper. That wasn’t the woman he knew. And this was Moose Haven. He’d worked quite a few crimes here, but the town as a whole was still sort of an Alaskan coastal Mayberry. It felt wrong for her to be so on edge here.
Still, before his brother, Tyler, had gotten married, someone had been after his future wife, Emma. Tyler had been able to reassure Emma that she was safe and Emma had trusted him.
Erynn knew too much to be that easily reassured. A threat could come out of nowhere. And if she was acting like this, there was a reason.
God, help me listen when she’s ready to talk. And help me know what to do. He prayed in his head, even as he started toward Erynn. He wasn’t going to be able to do this on his own. “Stay with me. We’ll go check it out together.”
She swallowed hard but offered him a small smile. At least he’d said the right thing this time.
He fought the urge to reach for her hand, settling instead for a hand on her back as he guided her along. Perfectly platonic. Not at all over the firm boundaries of their friendship and history as coworkers.
Again, nothing like his brother had been through. Or his sisters, for that matter. His siblings had found love amid danger, but Noah had long since given up on that for himself.
Because the only woman he was interested in had walls around her heart a mile high and he’d long ago realized that if he wanted to keep her as a friend he needed to respect those restrictions.
“It’s a note,” he said as they got closer to the table.
She reached for it.
“Don’t.”
She stopped at the sound of his voice, speared him with a look. “What are we going to do, call the police? We are the police, Noah.”
“I am. You’re a trooper. I believe you’ve been pretty clear about that a few times.” He couldn’t resist teasing her. Moose Haven treated its police officers well, but Alaska state troopers were proud of their title, their elite standing in the law enforcement world.
She made a face and, despite the tension in the air, despite the fact that Noah was looking over his shoulder—their shoulders—every few seconds, it felt good to know that whatever else was going on now, they still had a friendship. Or he thought they did.
Erynn reached for the paper, paused and looked at him.
“Same paper.”
“As what?”
She shook her head.
“I’m going to need the pieces I’m missing, Erynn, or I can’t help.”
He watched her face as emotions chased across it. She had never been good at hiding her feelings, except in work circumstances, and then she’d managed.
Erynn said, “It’s the same paper the serial killer Janie mentioned left with all of his victims. Thick, cream stationery. The blue ink is nothing special, your general economy pens available at any store. The paper comes from a special company, but they went out of business fifty years ago. Someone’s got a stockpile of the stuff and it’s impossible to trace.”
She paused. His mind spun in circles, trying to think through everything she’d just said.
After a moment Erynn reached forward again, picked up the stationery.
She’s mine. You’re next. And then it’s over.
Noah managed to read the words before she dropped the paper, watched as it fluttered to the table. She was back to looking pale again. He needed to get her inside, to feed her, to hear what was going on so he didn’t feel like he was always a couple of steps behind.
Wait. He grabbed up the note. “‘She’s mine’? He’s talking about—”
“Janie.” Erynn ran back to the car. “We have to get Janie out of the jail.” Noah followed her.
“She’s there to keep her safe, Erynn. There are officers in the building. She’s fine.”
“She’s not fine, Noah, trust me.”
She’d asked him to trust her once. To keep the Ice Maiden case open, against the advice of every other law enforcement officer involved.
He hadn’t done it.
“Let’s go.”
They backed out of the driveway, note carefully put inside a notebook on the back seat. They would process it for prints or any other trace evidence, though if this guy had been terrorizing and killing people for longer than a decade, Noah held out little hope it would hold anything useful.
“So much I didn’t say to her...” Erynn muttered. “I didn’t thank her for coming. Didn’t tell her I was sorry I didn’t figure it out sooner...”
“You figured out more than we did about that case, it seems like. More than anyone else.”
Erynn shook her head. “Not really. I had a hunch, that was all, but you can’t take a hunch to court. Can’t keep a case open for one.”
“You can tell her everything you want when we get there.”
She just shook her head again. “You don’t understand how he works.”
“Then tell me, Erynn. Tell me everything.”
“I’ve known him to take people from their beds while they were sleeping, with no one in the house disturbed, all the doors firmly locked when he left. He’s gotten people who were under police protection. Got an officer...”
“Janie told me you knew the officer who was killed.”
Erynn looked at him like she was asking him a question, asking his eyes, but didn’t say anything.
“She’ll be okay.” He believed it or he wouldn’t say it.
“She won’t.”
They drove on. His phone rang half a mile from Moose Haven.
Janie Davis was dead.
Erynn could not remember the last time she’d cried, but she knew it had been years, likely connected to this case. But she wanted to now. If only she could make the tears come, relieve the pressure building in her face and forehead...
She’d been too late. Again.
Beside her, Noah’s body language was another worry to contend with. The man was past worked up, more so than she’d ever seen him. On most of the cases they’d worked together, Erynn would have taken it upon herself to help him calm down, to bring some perspective.
Today she had nothing to give him. Wasn’t sure she had much left to give herself.
Janie was dead.
Erynn couldn’t see how she was supposed to escape the same fate. Not when every single person this killer had ever come after was dead. He’d already found Noah’s house, realized their connection.
“I wanted to be able to look at you for this conversation, not driving, but I need to know now, Erynn. Who and what are we dealing with? What do you know?”
He had managed to say the last part with no accusation in his voice.
She might be a lot of things, but she’d never hinder progress, especially not in this case. Didn’t Noah get that? This was her life, not just her.
Erynn had lost everything that mattered to her before. And thanks to this killer, she’d already come close again.
She didn’t want that to happen. Didn’t want to die. She drew in a shaky breath. “It’s faster if you search for some of the details online—they’re