Sex After Grief. Joan Price
Myth: Wait at least a year before having sex with a new partner.
Truth: Sex is comforting and an outlet for your powerful emotions and needs. There’s nothing wrong with you if you want to have sex soon after your beloved’s death, or even the day after the funeral. The one-year rule is useful for most decision making—such as marrying again or mixing finances—but when you have first sex with a new person is entirely up to you and your willing sex partner.
Myth: Sex with someone new is disloyal to your deceased loved one.
Truth: Guilt, especially survivor’s guilt, is a powerful force, but letting it rule our actions only harms us. Maybe you took the vow to be faithful “until death do us part.” You didn’t promise “after death for eternity thereafter.” It’s a horrible fact that your mate is gone, and nothing you do to care for yourself is “disloyal.” Wouldn’t your mate want you to care for yourself?
A Griever Shares
“Many people disapprove of a recently bereaved spouse jumping into the dating/mating game quickly. I was told by more than one person that it was ‘appropriate’ to wait a year before having sex with anyone. I thought that was bullshit, especially because my dear wife repeatedly urged me, ‘Don’t become a hermit’ and ‘Embrace life fully.’ It became a mantra that she uttered over and again to me in her final months.”
Myth: Wait until you’re sure this new person is a potential next mate before having sex.
Truth: This may be true for you if you have firm religious convictions that only allow sexual expression within marriage. Otherwise, screening a possible sex partner as a potential next spouse will only create impossible hurdles and anxiety and send potential dates running. (See Chapter 5, Dating Again, for a more realistic approach.)
Myth: You need to get out there and should have started dating by now.
Truth: When people push you to start dating before you’re ready, it says more about them than about you: your grief is making them uncomfortable, or they don’t understand grief at all. Don’t let yourself be influenced by anyone else’s notion of when you should be ready.
Myth: You should wait until you’re no longer grieving.
Truth: There is no magic moment when grief is over. Grieving is not finite. It does get easier and less painful over time, and it changes into a feeling and a deep connection you can live with. But there’s no magical end point. Grief can coexist with desire—even love—for a new person.
“The thing about grief is that there isn’t a place
or time at which we arrive once-and-for-all at peace, or healing, or completion.”
—Joanne Cacciatore, PhD in Bearing the Unbearable: Love, Loss, and the Heartbreaking Path of Grief
A Polyamorous Perspective
A perspective from David Wraith, sex educator, cofounder of Sex Positive St. Louis
Almost all the support, advice, and conventional wisdom around grieving the loss of a spouse or romantic partner is tailored to monogamous people. My grief support group was invaluable to me after my wife died, but I had to take a lot of their advice with a polyamory-flavored grain of salt. I was the only nonmonogamous person in my group, and even though I was among the most recently widowed, I was the only person who had dated anyone since my spouse’s passing. Some of the others in the group had been widowed for years and still weren’t ready to date.
One piece of advice that was shared in the group was, “You’ll know you’re ready to date again when you take off your wedding ring.” My current partner and I have been together for three years, and I still wear my wedding ring. I wore it when I was dating other people when my wife was alive, so why take it off now?
One advantage to being queer, black, kinky, and polyamorous is that I’m used to having to screen mainstream thought and opinion through my own personal filter before applying it to myself. Being a polyamorous widower is no different. I had to expect and brace myself for the judgment of my monogamous friends for “dating again so soon,” since many of them had no idea I was dating other people when my wife was still alive.
How Do You Respond to People Who Challenge Your Choices?
If they’re close friends, tell them the truth about your reasons—or don’t. If they’re casual friends, feel free not to respond, or, if you prefer, shut them down. If they’re hurtful or toxic, shut them down and/or avoid conversations with them. Some examples of responses you might give:
•I grieved a long time while my partner was ill. It’s time for me to live again.
•I’m not ready to date yet. I’ll know when I am.
•I’m moving forward on my own timetable. This doesn’t need fixing.
•I’m perfectly capable of making my own decisions.
•I know you’re concerned about me, but you don’t need to be.
•We have differing opinions about what I should do.
•I know that worked for you, but we’re not the same.
•That’s private, thank you for your concern.
•I’ll let you know if I need your advice, thanks.
•That’s not helpful.
“The process cannot be hurried by friends and family, who may want to ‘fix’ a widow or widower by arranging a new relationship for them. However well-meaning this is, it frequently ends in disaster, because recovery and adjustment can take much longer than most people realize. Equally, friends can be judgmental and critical if they believe a bereaved person has gotten over the death of their partner too quickly and is dating someone new before an ‘acceptable’ amount of time has passed.”
—Julia Samuel, in Grief Works: Stories of Life,
Death, and Surviving
Myths We Tell Ourselves
Sometimes the myths that hold us back are those we’ve internalized. We feel guilty because we’ve bought into beliefs that honestly don’t serve us anymore, if they ever did. For example:
Myth: Casual sex or sex with multiple partners is wrong and shameful.
Truth: You are an adult, fully capable of making your own decisions about what sex means to you, how you want to conduct your sex life, and with whom. There are myriad options for expressing our sexuality, and we can give ourselves permission for choosing the way that works for us now. Nothing you desire is wrong as long as it is consensual, safe, and honest. Choose your partners wisely and use safe sex protection every time.
Myth: Masturbation is wrong.
Truth: Masturbation is a wise choice for experiencing sexual release and all the good things that come with it—easier sleep, better mood, a lower likelihood of jumping into the wrong relationship out of sexual frustration. It’s a way to be sexual without involving anyone else. (See Chapter 4, Solo Sex.)
Myth: If I choose my next partner carefully, I don’t have to worry about sexually transmitted infections (STIs).
Truth: Use barrier protection always, with everyone. Please view my free “Safer Sex for Seniors with Joan Price” webinar on YouTube.
Myth: Nobody would want to have sex with me anyway.
Truth: That’s depression talking. You may see yourself as undesirable right now because you’re suffering too much to engage with another person. That’s valid—you’re not ready. But if you think no one would want you because you’re too old or not in shape, please question that age-shaming, body-shaming attitude. It will only hold you back.
Myth: We can only love once. I’m done now.
Truth: It may feel like you can only love once, but many of us have discovered that loving deeply and completely does not prevent us