I'll Be There For You. Kerry Barrett
palms like an electric current.
Nessa had seen it too. She gasped.
‘Is he…’ she began.
Still cuddling Fiona, I knelt down beside my son and stroked his cheek.
‘I think he is,’ I said. ‘You clever pair.’ Finn gazed at me for a second, then he crawled off to investigate Ness’s shoes.
‘Both of them,’ I said to Nessa quietly.
‘And so early,’ she said. ‘That’ll be fun.’
‘It’s going to be a nightmare,’ I said, cheerfully. I was thrilled the kids were both showing signs of witchcraft even if I was powerless myself right now.
For now, though, I had more than just my lack of talent to worry about.
Lou came home from work about 10 p.m., looking excited and worried at the same time.
‘What’s the matter?’ I said straightaway, clocking her flushed cheeks.
She sat down next to me.
‘I’ve been offered a secondment,’ she said, shrugging off her leather jacket. ‘To be part of a major investigation. It’s quite a big deal.’
‘That’s brilliant,’ I said, squeezing her arm. ‘So what’s the problem?’
Louise bit her lip.
‘It’s really, really full on,’ she said. ‘It’s going undercover, investigating one of the biggest businesses in the country. It’s a massive honour that they’ve picked me to be part of the team but, Harry it’s going to mean a lot of late nights, long days and working at weekends.’
I made a face.
‘For how long?’ I asked.
‘I reckon about three months altogether,’ Lou said. ‘A couple of weeks first getting familiar with the company, before we go in, then maybe two months undercover and a week or so afterwards for debriefing.’
I took a deep breath. Being without Lou for that long was absolutely the last thing I wanted, but she was a really good detective, and I knew this could be an opportunity that wouldn’t come up again.
‘Do you want to do it?’ I said, taking her hand.
‘Not sure,’ she shrugged. ‘If this had been before I met you, or before we’d had the kids, then I’d have jumped at the chance. It’s a big pat on the back that they’ve asked me and it could lead to amazing things at work. Plus it’s working in Fraud – I’ve always wanted to get into that department. And the other members of the team are all amazing – I’d love to work with them.’
She paused.
‘But I don’t want to be away from you all for so long.’
I put my arm round her and pulled her close to me.
‘I think you should do it,’ I lied. I didn’t want her to do it. But I knew that any problems in our marriage weren’t going to be solved by me forcing her to turn down this opportunity. ‘We’ll just have to make a pact to really make the most of your days off and not just sit around the house in our pyjamas. You shouldn’t turn down a chance like this.’
‘Really?’ said Louise, still looking unsure.
‘Really,’ I said. ‘Listen, why don’t we see if we can book a holiday for afterwards? Just two weeks in Majorca or something at the end of the summer? It’ll give us something to look forward to. The kids would love it and we can spend some proper time together.’
Louise grinned at me.
‘That’s a great idea,’ she said. ‘You really think I should do it?’
‘I do,’ I said. ‘Ring them now and tell them.’
She leaned over and kissed me.
‘You’re amazing,’ she said.
I kissed her back.
‘I know.’
I didn’t feel amazing. I felt wretched. But I couldn’t let Louise pass up on such a brilliant opportunity. And it was only a couple of months, I kept telling myself, determined to have a look at some holiday deals for when it was all over.
For now, though, I had bigger things to worry about ‒ Esme’s baby group for a start. And the fact that with Fiona and Finn both showing signs that their magic was developing, I was going to have to fess up to Ez about my lack of powers and ‒ worse ‒ throw myself on her mercy and ask her to help. I felt sick at the thought. I was not the sort of person who enjoyed asking for help. Nor was I completely confident in Esme’s abilities. It wasn’t that long ago that I was giving her magic lessons, so to be dependent on her now made me uneasy.
It was another sunny spring day and I was walking with the twins in their double buggy to Esme’s house. She also lived by the river, but it was impossible to negotiate the muddy path with our gigantic pram, so I’d walked round by the road.
Esme and Jamie’s house was lovely, though quite small now they had Clemmie. Their pram was outside the front door and as I rang the doorbell I could hear Esme singing the wheels on the bus and Clemmie crying. I didn’t blame her. Esme was no SuBo.
She answered the door with a slightly tearstained Clemmie in her arms.
‘Ready?’ she said with a grin.
I shook my head.
‘Not really.’
Esme clipped Clemmie into the pushchair and handed her a chewy giraffe to gum, then she reached inside the front door and grabbed a raincoat I’d never seen before.
I narrowed my eyes at her.
‘Is that Boden?’ I asked as she pulled it on. I looked her up and down. She was wearing skinny jeans, ballet pumps, a Breton-striped T-shirt and now her Boden raincoat. It wasn’t her normal style at all.
‘Esme,’ I said, fighting laughter. ‘Are you wearing a uniform?’
Esme tossed her hair, she pushed Clemmie down the path and I followed with the twins who were shouting for Esme’s attention.
‘It’s just easier if I look like everyone else,’ she muttered. ‘Given that I’m not like everyone else.’
I felt sorry for her suddenly. She’d always struggled with being different, bless her. I embraced it, but she hid from it.
I patted her hand where it rested on Clemmie’s pushchair handle, her knuckles white with tension.
‘They’re a really nice bunch at the baby group,’ she said. ‘I think it’ll be nice for you to make friends. It’s so good to have other people who know what you’re going through.’
‘I’ve got Louise,’ I said. ‘And I’ve got you.’
‘I know,’ Esme said, she turned to look at me as we paused to cross the road. ‘But you’re not yourself at the moment and I don’t know why. I just thought getting out might help.’
We were walking past the gates of Inverleith Park as she spoke. I saw my chance.
‘Do we have time to just sit for five minutes?’ I asked.
Esme nodded, looking slightly nonplussed. But she didn’t argue as she followed me into the park and sat down next to me on a bench overlooking one of the ponds.
I could feel Esme watching me, but I stared straight ahead. It would be easier to say this if I couldn’t see her reaction.
‘I’ve lost my powers,’ I said in a rush. ‘They’re gone. Nada. Nil. Vanished.’
Esme didn’t say anything.