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sense at the time, but a little sobriety made me see the bizarre episode for what it was: A doctor told me I faced serious health problems because I was drinking too much, and I responded by playing games.
If he had told me that chocolate bars were causing a life-threatening problem, I wouldn't merely have cut back; I would have quit, that day, because chocolate bars weren't that important to me. And that's the insanity: Alcohol had become important enough to me to die for.
G.S.
Royal Oak, Michigan
Where's the Miracle?
November 2006 (PO Box 1980)
In AA, I often hear, “Don't give up five minutes before the miracle.” But most of the important and astounding things that have happened to me in the last eighteen years of sobriety in AA have been slow in coming and impossible to recognize or appreciate until long after they took place.
However, there was one exception. That is the miracle that comes with Step Two.
One day, after nine months of attending meetings and staying dry, I was standing alone in our meeting room just beneath where the Twelve Steps hung on the wall. I looked up and my eyes fell on Step Two.
As I read, “Came to believe that a Power greater than ourselves could restore us to sanity,” I suddenly realized that I no longer had any desire to drink. I couldn't even remember when I had last thought of alcohol. The obsession which had controlled my whole life for twenty-five years had simply vanished. AA works.
Dennis D.
Fort Worth, Texas
STEP THREE
“Made a decision to turn our will
and our lives over to the care
of God as we understood Him.”
“Step Three calls for affirmative action,” the essay in Twelve Steps and Twelve Traditions states. “It is only by action that we can cut away the self-will which has always blocked the entry of God—or, if you like, a Higher Power—into our lives.”
The Big Book uses even stronger words about self-will: “We alcoholics must be rid of this selfishness. We must or it kills us! ”
And so, AAs move toward the action Steps, where they prepare to take inventory, admit the nature of their wrongs, ask for help in removing their character defects, and make amends.
The AAs in this chapter talk about the various parts of Step Three: making a decision, what it means to turn over their will and lives, and God as we understand him—or, for many AAs, as we don't understand him.
“I was too confused to be even a good agnostic,” an AA wrote in a 1981 Grapevine story. “The turning of my will and life ‘over to the care of God as we understood Him' implied that some sort of understanding had to come first.” It was only after years of searching that she let go of her need to understand God. “Everything is easier now that I have a Higher Power that I don't understand.”
“Good" replaces “God” in some AAs' beliefs. Other use AA itself, or “Ultimate Purpose of the Universe,” or “Collective Wisdom” as their Higher Power. “I notice that there are a lot of people who … spend their time trying to find this ‘God they understand' in order to turn their will over to him/her,” an atheist AA wrote in a 1998 Grapevine story. “There doesn't have to be a recipient of their will: All they have to do is let it go.”
In these stories, find out how other AAs have approached Step Three.
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